Starting over

My Story In Mid-2010s, I moved to US to study engineering, the first 2 years were okay, but after things took a dark turn and by the beginning of 2020 I thought I was gonna be okay but then the pandemic hit and my mental health took a turn for the worst. Summer 2020 my dad got really mad at me for taking long to graduate and unleashed some major news that he refused to tell me until it was too late. Towards the end of 2020, I quit my job, and stopped going to class, I couldn’t even shower, I was living with an abusive alcoholic who was just awful in every way. My family wasn’t talking to me, except for my mom and she didn’t understand much. I was very lonely. Globally lonely. I finally moved out of there, but then in Jan 2021 my dad hit his head and had to get brain surgery. I hadn’t seen my family in years to so I thought I was gonna not see my dad and he’d die. He lived and the surgery went successfully but at the moment I didn’t have any money left and I wasn’t authorized to make any money either as an international student. I was trauma frozen. I returned home, in a country that I no longer consider my home and I want to find a way to get out and make a living again. For the past 6 months I’ve been stuck in my room (my only safe space) deeply depressed. I want to pay back my parents, and just move away, and only help out financially but I no longer want anything to do with them as they continue to carry out the toxic behaviors that lead to many misunderstandings in the past and made me feel deeply isolated. I was molested as a kid but an extended family member and they never knew. I’m not sure if they even wanted me as I was unexpected but at the moment for my own safety (I’m not safe in my country for long due to religious persecution) I need to find a way out of here. Idk what to do.

you are in which country ? Be optimistic , and dont look back to your history just move forward, find some job, and start doing it, but dont sit at home without doing anything

most of the people in world,face hard times so its nothing new with you, be brave, if you dont find job of your choice, then dont worry, and start work at some place where you are getting lesser salary less salary is better then doing nothing divert your mind to your job/work/study and in some time, things will get better, with your earning and specially, with your parents good relation with parents, is more then any thing in this world, you can contact me by whatsApp als, if you like

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