Feeling stuck, wanting to move out

I've been out of school for the past few years and not done anything else, I really want to start college. I live with my family and always have been. I live in a country outside of my home country for almost 15 years. The problem is that my family and I are unable to make our way back to our home country because of financial difficulties. We barely get by as only one parent has a job. I recently told my family about my desire to move out and find a place with what money I have saved up and start right away, and while they understood my need to being out there in the world, to just put me out there and start doesnt sit well with them in terms of finding a place and already struggle. They'd rather have me ease into it and then I can adapt. But I've been out of school for so long, it's getting to me emotionally. I just want to pack my stuff and be on my way, but even though they said I can move out anytime, they also said that rent in my home country isn't cheap. I feel like the whole "you can move out anytime" thing is invalid and meaniningless. I feel like I'm being held back from getting a start in my future, even if it is gonna be difficult somewhat. The place I'm in is okay, I have family, a bed, food, but it just feels like all of these things are like ways for me to stay. I find myself being shy, so speaking up about this issue recently was a big moment, but a part of me just wishes I stood my ground and fought a bit harder for what I want, what I need to do. How do I approach this? What are your thoughts on this? What should I do?

If your family can barely make it on the combined income now. What has you convinced that you can do it alone, with only your salary?

Apart from the truly affluent - virtually EVERY young adult is finding his or herself 'trapped' at home lately, thanks to the terrible state of the global economy and this Cost Of Living Crisis. Your parents know your country of origin. They probably know that, a couple of months into any rental you'd be calling them, saying, HELP, I CAN'T AFFORD MY RENT THIS MONTH. And they know that they'd have to bail you out. So it would fall on them and they can't afford that - your cost of living is cheaper at home with them. How would you 'ease into' that relocation, though? What - move in with relatives over there?