Ex broke up with me

ok so, it starts off getting bad just 4 days ago, I was a real jerk to my gf due to my problems about money and internet issues and I didnt think before saying. We have been together for 4 years now also so she knows how I can get mad sometimes obviously lol. Anyway, I went off on her in a way that I never really did before, she just wanted to have fun with her friends while I was wanting to talk to her and asking her all sorts of questions. We are in an online relationship so already those arent easy, I'm 23 and she is 25 26 in a few months. During the break up she told me to leave her alone etc. because she is hurt for me saying "eff you" etc. for not talking to me when she was just stopped communication. The next day about 10 hours later not even I tried to make contact and she said we were over, I was on block but she unblocked me right away after I requested to be unblocked. so the 1st thing I did was try getting her back as I read is a bad idea once she ends it, its over. and during this she tells me, she loves me but cant do it anymore. telling me all she is interested in is having sex, she doesnt really like me much anymore, and I'm a jerk that aggrivates her (I know I'm not a jerk). She still finds me extremely attractive we have breakup sex. which didnt feel right at all. Then she was telling me how I need to leave her alone and her friends alone, because I was pestering one. telling me not to be on everyday because that will just make her get rid of me more, and saying how can I miss you if you dont go away? "plus you even gave in to my advances so atm I'm learning that I can get w/e I want from you without trying" is another thing she said. Telling me to go do something else and have fun and she said "Make me want you back" Move on, at least try. Later on the next day, I came by again chatting with her new friends that she just met 3 days now, and she called me a stalker. I said I wasnt and she replied "k whatever I'm not talking to you though" Later on that evening, I thought I could try again. And she said she doesnt want to talk to me. I asked if she was seeing another guy? (which was a stupid question) and I was put on block once again. She unblocked me later on by me sending messages through email, so she did once more and I said sorry leaving you alone now. I come back the next day (stupid of me) and just try and chat, she tells me god has been on her mind because she has a relationship with him that needs fixing. Telling me she is in pain again because of the stress from me by not leaving her alone (I know I'm not causing it, its a complicated story that I wont go into). She tells me I'm intruding by not leaving her and her new friends alone and specifically one guy which is a religious person who is trying to "help her" find god apparently. Tells me I need to leave her alone, give her space, intruding in her groups and going on mumble (which she has gone on at least 8 hours per day since she met these new people). The next day now, this is day 3 of breakup. I try to apologize to her and her reply is "GO AWAY" Well, later on that night she talks to me about it I saw them both in a private chat room but didnt have time to join they logged out quickly. she tells me that she was not cheating because I said she was for catching them like that, that he is just a platonic relationship and helping find god. She tells me that she hasnt been in love with me for at least a year and only put up with me because of lust for me. tells me I cant be with her anymore and its final. No chance on getting back together. She tells me he was giving her lessons on god about being in the chat channel and didnt want interuptions is why he logged because he had to go anyway. This conversation goes on for awhile telling me how we are over. Telling me that she did like me but she was lonely. saying she is working on her relationship with god that doesnt include me anymore. Its not the relationship she wants anymore. Saying I annoy her and she's given me lots of chances before, but this is it and she is done. She then goes on and say she needs time away from me. if we are ever to be friends again, but lovers probably never are her words. Telling me she only likes this guy as a friend strictly, and that he's helping her with her relationship with god, all of her new friends are. She doesnt want to get back into the destructive relationship we had. I ask if we take time apart and change if there was a chance and she replies. "sigh" "well I wont say never but its very unlikely right now" She then asked me if we want to be friends. but need time away from each other before that can happen. I keep asking if we can ever get back (getting annoying I'm sure) and she then replies, "a very, very slim chance, and I mean at least a year from now or more" " but thats only if you leave me alone, because at the moment, you're just making me justify my choice, by doing this." I asked what she fell in love with me and what I changed, I became a jerk towards her over time, and she said if you want my version.. just stop being a dick. be the nice boy because I became really vile as I turned older. I forgot to say that every time I asked, she told me she has friends that arent interested her in the way of sex or relationship, and she doesnt want them to be so they are defo. purely friends. Later on that night, I start talking to her again (big mistake this time I think) she replies "why wont you just GO. why?!?!?!?" "I just want you out of my life, I cant take it anymore" "just get out and stay out out out out." another "get out of my life, GET OUT OUT OUT PLEASE!" "I dont need you" "out please you make me cry in frustration" telling me I have no idea how creepy it is just watching her. saying she doesnt want to talk to me, I dont want to talk to you, I hate you!! I was confused still and made the mistake of saying if there was a chance with is she said" yeah there mightve been a chance if you left me alone, but fuck no not anymore. fucking hell" it goes on a bit more that she typed out loud that she needs to calm down etc, that I'm just an asshole etc. she doesnt care. and that is the last conversation we had, I left her alone completely today, but idk what to do other than to give her, her space. It feels like now I've gone and messed it up already entirely by talking to her after our final relationship talk before that night. I still feel there is hope, my emotions are mixed all over now. Help on this would be nice since no one understands. =

well update to this is, she came back a month later and broke down about problems etc. and she told me why she broke up and these are her words. " you know in a nutshell, our situation is, you pissed me the hell off and i hated our relationship. it was really upsetting me and making me angry 24/7, eventually i decided, i wanted friends, not a boyfriend, then in the last month a shitload has happened." "firstly, i decided i just needed friends and ill be A OK. but then i found out that its actually my SA being the problem and its going to prevent me from being happy ever. then i found out i actually still missed you after like 4-5 weeks of low/no contact. despite how much you had pissed me off i still liked you because you always listen and well theres a list of good qualities. " to sum it all up - "first i was pissed off, then i was upset, then i wanted to fill the void you filled via new boyfriend, but then i realised i cant get one, so i went crazy, then i realised i have problems with my views on sex, relationships and myself in general" i chose to keep you as a friend because i feel i hve to value what few friends i have and you seemed eager to keep in contact theres no maliciousness here none" (because I asked) Anyway after that a week and a half went by and her story never changed, she only wants friends and no relationship at all. We kept talking but she kept telling me she wants me to move on. She still likes me a lot she also kept saying to me. And if y'all dont remember I'm in USA and she is in UK. Anyway.. 3 days ago she completely has disappeared and the last things she kept talking about was how dating sites were bad etc. but she only wants friends and saying how she hates herself and doesnt like herself. she also tells me if I was in her country she would take me in a heartbeat.. so is what she saying she cant do long distance relationships anymore? She has me blocked now and I dont really know what to do. Any help would be wonderful? =(