In love with a married man

I have been in love with a married man for about a year now, I've known him all my life and he started things off romantically. I always brushed it off and he kept texting me and calling me for almost 2 years. I myself am married but separated for almost 3 years. I finally gave in and let things happen surprisingly I enjoyed it and we talk almost everyday! The thing is he says how his marriage sucks to put it bluntly but he doesn't leave her nor do I expect him to but I have these feelings that I know are wrong and even ended it A FEW TIMES,,, he always contacts me saying how much he misses me and bam we start talking again. Iam lost as to knowing if he feels the same way I do or am I just a diversion to his everyday life? He seems sincere when we are together and very attentive,,,, but afterward he kinda backs off a bit and I just don't know how to explain it! He never used the word love in the sense it's meant to be and when I say I missed him or something like that he says well friends miss friends!! Ugh so I leave it at that ! A day or 2 may go by and no contact then again bam he calls that he misses me! So I don't know what to do!

well my dear you sound like you have chemistry. i guess its not so much ethical or a moral problem than if he is your soulmate. and if he is in love with you as much as you are in love with him. as nobody wants to be in a one sided relationship where you are in love with him and he is not in love. but it might still work when love is not enough and there is respect and honour on both sides. what does it matter if he loves you or not. or whether he is in love with you. what matters is whether he is your soulmate. enjoy what it is love but he may not be in love with you as you would know and wouldnt have to ask. but enjoy the love expereince with him but wait for your soulmate who will be in love with you as much as you are in love with soulmate. it will be mutal and never one sided. and you will never have to ask your soulmate if they are in love with you. if he is a good man enjoy the meantime relationship and the experience of being in love but when you meet your soulmate you will know what is to fall in love at first sight. and the kind of happiness that you will never experience with another. that only soulmates will experience togethier. and there is only one soulmate for each person. i have a feeling the married man you are in love with is not your soulmate. or you would have recognised each other as soulmates and it would have been love at first sight. have a look at linda goodman love signs introduction for signs to recognise your soulmate. hugs.

Thanks saronna again its a very confusing situation, he had asked me at one point where we're you 7 years ago? And like I said we've known eachother all our lives,, at that time I was in a marriage myself,,he said he's very comfortable with me and there're is no awkwardness between us from day one when this started. It's more of a never to divorce kinda thing with him he has no children or a house to pay for more of a IM PETRIFIED of her and all her family ties to him and mutual friends! I have a feeling that if I weren't in the picture he would be looking for it somewhere else! I don't think he will ever be happy as his wife is very controlling and demanding he said doesn't know what to expect when he goes home of what mood she will be in,,as she flies off the handle a moments notice without warrant! To others they say shes somewhat a b word! We have a great time together and when we at a function all together as soon as he can he starts texting me how he couldn't stop staring at me all day and what not!! If she is out boom he's texting me!! He seems very sincere and kind I just don't know what he is thinking and I make myself available to him at all times and even held off a few times and we didn't talk in a month until he reaches out to me even though I missed him I thought it was for the best! We have a lot in common as we are the same age,,, his wife is much younger than him! Strange relationship I think as a on looker but I didn't know what's up!! Hugs to you for taking the time to read this and respond earlier :)