Should I stay or should I go

So I did end up talking to my husband about when he cheated on me and he didn't get mad and told me. I understood a little more and forgave him. Now though I still find myself questioning if there is things going on behind my back. I think bad and that I should go then I think positive and think that I could be wrong. I don't know if anyone else has ever been in this situation where you don't know what to do. I mean things most of the time are going great. Then sometimes I have to question the truth if things don't make sense to me. I even find myself thinking of hiring someone to follow him and see if he is doing anything. I know that isn't right and what if he is innocent. I don't want him to feel bad. I also know sooner or later he will get caught. I'm going to go get myself tested cause he is the only man I have ever been with and that might tell me something. Can anyone give my any friendly advice.

Marriage can be difficult especially after one of the partners has an affair. Rebuilding the trust between the two of you will take some time, but you can't keep a marriage together with only one of the partners making the effort. One thing you might do is begin with asking yourself a few questions about what it is that you really want to do. Do you still love him? Do you still want to try and make the relationship work? What would it take to make you feel trusting again? Those are just a few basic questions to ask yourself. But starting with YOU and your own needs might be a good place to begin.

Thanks for the feedback. I will continue to ask myself those questions. I have seen an effort on both ends to save this relationship. I don't know if it's just my own insecurities that has me feeling like a seesaw though. I guess only time will tell with this one. Thanks again for the advice.

Try. to become more independent than depending on any relationship. If you dont trust then allow him to do whatever he wants and better move on. No point in just brooding. No point in playing the blaming game. If you are not happy then why hold on.