Please help! Relationship problem!!!

So i like this guy. He is a really close friend of mine. We text everyday, Facebook chat and sometimes even skype. He tells me I'm beautiful and how much he misses me and cares about me and when he tells me all these things I can't help but feel happy. We even flirt from time to time sending highly flirty messages and pictures. But he constantly calls me "best friend" and tells me I should find a guy that's better than him. It makes me upset, cause I don't want to find another guy and it make me more upset when he tells me that he tries to talk to other girls and if he's ever in a relationship I'll still be his best friend and I could meet her (stab in the heart) But the thing is all the girls he talks to either blow him off or find someone hotter (I'll admit he's not the hottest guy but I still find him attractive and fell for his personality) I hate seeing him get hurt by all these girls that don't treat him right. The truth is I've liked him for the longest time and when he got a girlfriend I stepped aside even though it hurt me and when they broke up he got closer to me as a friend which eventually led to fooling around and making out. I hadn't planned on it, but I guess I gave in because that's what I wanted. I let it go that far because I actually like him and want to be with him but I feel that he only kisses me to fill a void since other girls don't look at him the way I do. It hurts knowing that I can never tell him how I feel because I don't want to ruin our friendship or risk rejection. He wants me to visit him next week (it would be a long trip if I intend to do it) so we can spend time together. But I'm afraid he'll just want to fool around again since it's been a routine every time we meet. I want to say no but my heart really wants to be with him. I don't know what to do. If I do go visit him, I may fall into temptation even though I told myself I would end the intimacy since it's obvious he doesn't want me to be his girlfriend. But if I don't go I may lose my friend altogether. If I go (I feel like I need to see him again) perhaps I can finally come clean and tell him how I feel about him (which may also risk the friendship) but I guess I need to know. Maybe if I tell him how I feel he'll like me back and stop trying to be with other girls to be with me? I just feel lost and confused.

Hi, I had the almost exact same issue with a guy about a year ago and I\'m still living now... haha so I think I may be able to help you out. Not trying to be weird or anything, but would you mind telling me how old you are so I can kindof put this all into perspective?

I'm 20