I can't make decisions

Hi everyone. I am taking a year off studies in order to get well. I realised that there was so much I wanted to change about myself and my life. It seemed as if I had bad luck over the couple of years and I couldn't really be who I really wanted to be. I first ended my problematic friendships which were stressing me. This was the first step into changing my life. Then I underwent plastic surgery which I always wanted to do. Another big step was changing my name. I had come across with people who said that names really influence your life and who you are. And that you might be having a difficult life or bad luck because of your name. I had been thinking of changing my name before but I thought it wouldn't be easy and never had time to actually do it. I live in the UK and have a Turkish name: 'Ece' which means Queen in Turkish. People can never pronounce my name. They call me E.C.E, Esse, Iss, Ecke. In turkish the letter C is pronounced as 'j' or 'g' and the second 'e' is also pronounced. I changed my name to Melissa and kept my previous name as my middle name. But since then I can't seem to get used to my new name and it feels weird that new people I meet will call me Melissa and everyone else will call me with my previous name. I make up my mind one day that I will give my new name a go and Become Melissa. It gets me excited that I can give myself a fresh start and live a new life. And that it will be easy for people to spell and pronounce it. But the next day I wake up I tend to feel weird and rather sad about my new name. I think too much as to whether I've made the right decision. I start thinking about what others will think of my new name. I feel that I have to make a decision as I am planning to find a new job and have to be able to tell them what my name is! Any advice given will be much appreciated. Could you please tell me your thoughts? Thanks

Hi! Pros and cons. To me the biggest thing here is if you absolutely can't stand how people can't pronounce your name correctly. It seems to me that you are already on the path to being a new you and hopefully you are happy about where you are going, it seems like it. In this case I am not so attached to my name, it's unisex so I have always been bothered by it as a female, so I could change mine no problem. My name does not have any heritage of meaning for me behind it and to me it sounds like yours does. So pros and cons. Does your name mean more to you than having to correct people saying it? :) Hope that helps and good luck!

well i have to start by giving u props for taking that step to want to better yourself..thats something that i still need to do :( but anyways just do what u feel is right for yourself...dont care what other think bcuz ive learned that u can never make eveyryone happy but the most important person u can make happpy is yourself....its your life not theirs so live it to the point that makes u happy...good luck!