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Does my abusive boyfriend love me?

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I know, I know, I know. I've looked through every single damn site that's on the internet about this. I'm really hoping for something different other than the generic answers i've read from other sites; "Break up with him" "Of course he doesn't love you". I have been with my boyfriend for a year and a half now. The start of our relationship wasn't the best - we weren't friends before and he is my friend's ex (i'm a b**** whatever). Things started off well, we really clicked. His parents had split up a few months before we got into our relationship. He seemed absolutely okay with it all at first, we would go out with his parents but over time he began to blame anger problems and outbursts on this. A few months in I actually realised how different we were. He was still a virgin when I met him but he'd done... other things with girls while I was basically pure. We argued and argued over the fact that I wasn't ready to do anything and after time, his friend pressured us into sex. Kind of like "go do it now!" and stuff like that (pathetic I know). This same friend called me up one night and confessed his 'love' to me and this is where my boyfriend's insecurities began to build and build. It got to the point where we would argue about me going to parties and out with my friends. He ditched all of his friends and now he doesn't have any at all. Last year we broke up for about a week. I began to talk to the same friend and we planned to meet up (it never happened). When me and my boyfriend got back together I told him honestly about what I did and obviously it didn't help his insecurities. Now, he accuses me of cheating a lot. If he comes over to my house unexpectedly and i'm not there he'll accuse me of being somewhere with 'another guy' when actually, I was at the shop. Recently, he's quit a few jobs and he claims he doesn't know what he wants to do with his life. His parents and also mine are always pressuring him to get a job but he always ends up with a bad relationship with his boss when he tries to take hours off to see me (I don't really approve). He's started going to counselling because he's so unmotivated and angry. I try to make him meals and things to cheer him up and nothing seems to work. I haven't got a job myself yet, i'm in the middle of exams, and I don't have the money to take him out but I would if I could. Over the past few months he's been bringing his anger into my house. We'd get into an argument over something small and it get worse and worse until he grabs me by the neck or slaps me or something. It's never hard and I don't usually bruise but that's not the point. If I don't talk to him he'll grab my arms or push me. Today he pulled my hair and slapped me lightly continuously because I said I wanted to revise instead of go to his sister's bbq. Later on he'd been to the city and he'd bought me gifts. A few months ago he started insulting me because he wanted to make me 'stronger'. Apparently I am weak and I cry too much but only because it's him. He'd say that i'd put on weight and that my legs are 'veiny' and i'm a boring person because I wanted to study. Sometimes if he doesn't get the answers he wants from me he'll sit by me into late hours of the night when I have exams the next day and continuously ask me the same thing over and over until I say 'yes' or what he wants me to. Even when he has hit me and he has to leave he expects a hug and a kiss and a "I love you" and will stay until we go through that routine. Honestly, this guy treats me like an angel and a sack of s*** at the same time. He'll ALWAYS be here for me if i'm upset, if I ask him to come round he will, if I ask him to buy something for me he will, he always tells me he loves me and thanks me for everything I do for him, we have good laughs and we're going on holiday together this year. He's an absolute star sometimes and I just don't know. I can't break up with him again. Do you think if I wait for his counselling sessions to help him and if I stay positive for him he'll change back in to the guy that I fell in love with? Do you think there's anything I can do to help him? Or do you think that there's nothing I can do?

Does my abusive boyfriend love me?

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Your story sounds exactly like mine. Get out while you can. Mine ended badly and im still suffering. I put up with so much and tried to leave many times. In the end he left me.

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