Need to get my life back

I am in a marriage of 26 years. I need to get out to stay sane and get my life back. I have been depressed for over 7 years because of our marriage. My husband is driving me insane with his business and all of its drama. I can't get out of bed, go anywhere, can't listen to music, don't want to take care of myself and I feel like I am going to die. I can't handle one more second of this. I don't know where to start to get out of this mess and afraid of what his reaction would be. He knows I am miserable and so is he. I quit my job 7 years ago to help him with his. I don't know if I could work again to get on my feet.I am on medication but nothing helps. The longer I stay here the worse I get. HELP!!!!

You need to get your stuff and leave that's not a good environment for you at all. & by the looks of things there is no way the relationship can be saved just get up and leave its that easy. & if you really don't like your life right now, you will.

You feel trapped but your not you need to pride your self on who you are and what you want out of life.there is no excuse for feeling depressed because you have the power that no one has, and that's the power to tell him to his face your leaving, a job is easy.get a job outside whilst the summers here and start enjoying your life!and feel the warmth and the see the beauty that you are blind too at the moment ask yourself is he the man you married?and then ask would you marry a man like he is now? If no you have to get out you just need to be around happy people. if you want to try and get him making an effort again on you i would start my just forcing yourself to do your make up and hair and put on a nice dress to show a bit of skin who cares if you don't feel comfortable doing it, it will get him thinking about you when you just say your off out to have a drink with a friend and then just stay at a friends house for the night then watch him start taking a bit more notice of you and less of the business!and if he does nothing then its clear he does not deserve you! Just make sure you can prove you were at your mates house by a video/photo just in case it turns out he cares a lot!stay strong you have complete control of the situation and the power to make your self happy!the sooner you act the sooner you will be happier!think positive and you will make life positive!

I can understand what you must be going through, its easy to simply read an advise but difficult to implement the same. if I ask you to take one important step. ONE IMPORTANT, you need to make yourself emotionally independent first. its not at all difficult, you seem to be in this depressed state because you are dependng emotionally on your husband. for the time being till you are out of this mess stop depending for your emotional needs on him. BELIEVE ME this will work. now how to start with this you may ask. well, fall in love with your ownself. stop thinking about all those who dont care for you. LOVE YOUR VERY OWN SELF. try this. pamper yourself. for the time being start to live giving utmost importance to your VERY OWN SELF first and then others. if you dont do this you will only keep on and on felling pity on your self, I am not saying to leave your family, dont leave them, but live for your self first and then for others , this will start making you feel better. tel me one thing before your marraige you were living with your parents and you were not even aware about this husband of yours, were you? so were you depending on this person at that time, obviously no, so how it makes any difference now? you can be physically present before him but disease of depression has nothing to do with physical body, its all mental, all in your mind and your mind tells you to emotionally depend on your hubby, dont listen to your mind and hearts weak advises, BE FREE from emotional mess, its very very simple, not that difficult. see the moment you realise that you no more require emotional support from your husband, you will become free, will feel light, will be happy, smile will return on your face. you will love your life. at the very first step want to ask you why, why you want anybodys support from emotional point of view, why such weakness of heart? cant you give your very own emotional support to your very own self. you can. once you get my words, i mean what i am trying to explain you will hit the jackpot. when you were a child you were not knowing this person, even when you grew up and were studying, still you knew nothing about him, did you? no you didnot, so why its making a difference now?, once you get what i am saying you will automatically start waking up early, automatically start doing your things, will automatically start listening to music, will be happy, anyway my webplace http://www.songofgod.blogspot.com