Not being able to love my boyfriend normally when loathing myself

I have serious self-conscious issues. Ive had bulimia and from time to time I can't go out because I feel like my existence in this world is a waste..I wont be able to stop crying until i get massive headaches and painful swollen eyes. I hate it when people look at me and when I look at the people walking around, I just can't help feeling like a piece of crap compared to them. Now I can't even let people touch me, not even my boyfriend... Im deeply in pain because while im hurting myself, im hurting him as well..I love him so much.. now he must think i want a break up or something. he knows that i have self conscious issues but he doesn't know its gotten that serious.. However, I think he will be better off without me.

I don't know much about bulimia but I do know that it is a problem that will affect you forever if you do not seek help. It is a mental issue that relly needs to be treated. The MOST important thing is that you admitted your problem and is not in denial. If he loves you and you love him then tell him the truth and you guys take that walk to seek help together. I am soooo sorry that you is suffering with this condition and I do hope you will seek help before it destroys any more of you and the love you have for your boyfriend. ALWAYS remember you are beautiful inside and out no matter what. PLEASE seek help because from what I've learned having bulimia is NOT good. I'm positive that he will understand. I really hope that this helps! I am here if you need to chat!