So lost!

I'll try to make this short. My fiancé and I have been together for 2 and a half years and we have a 15 month old. He has never physically cheated in me as far as I know but there have been more than enough times that I have found naked pictures of his ex on his phone, the to of him bad mouthing me to girls so that he seems amazing and I'm horrible but tells his buddies how great I am. He tells me everything he does is for me and our son and I know he loves me but I literally have lost count of how many times I have caught him doing something wrong. I would say its at least in the 30's. we have broken up a couple times because I know that I shouldn't be with someone who can tell me how much he loves me in one breath and in the next tell some other on girl he wants to meet up later. My problem is we were going good for a little while he was doing good and now all of a sudden he is back to his ways. No matter what I do he finds a way to make it my fault and I feel so guilty I come back. So if I really didn't want to be with him then I wouldn't come back. Am I delusional to think that this is what I want if I keep coming back or is the fact that I have a son with him what compels me soooo much to be with him. I love him but sometimes I feel that's the only reason I'm with him.

you still have a chance out of this relationship :) dont take the handcuffs and put it on your wrist girl. you deserve a better man :)

I agree it every time I leave I come back within the week. He knows just what to say no matter what the situation is to get me to come back. How do I stay away? I don't want him out of my life because regardless he is an amazing father but not a good partner....

I was in a relationship similar to yours .... its not easy letting go especially when you start thinking about being a single mom...but lets see if you agree you are blaming yourself for standing up for yourself....? well you should its not until you are away from the situation you are going to realize how much you disrespected yourself....you will make it....