How to handle

Well junior year of high school me and a friend were getting closer and I had a crush on him earlier in mid high. He was going to teach me how to play a game that most of my friends were playing at the time called, park bench. I knew a few of the rules and was excised to learn how to play. We found a privet place to sit in the canyon and started to play. He started and kissed my cheek causing me to lose. Things kept heating up till finally I was giving him a bj. After that we both went home and acted like nothing happened. I was stupid and tried hinting at him that I liked him and wanted more he just shrugged me off. Finally after getting over him, the end of junior year, I was starting to date another friend of mine whom moved away who was also the first guy's friend. We have been dating now for over two years and feel we have a future together. During that time I kept my distance from the guy who I thought hated me for not giving him everything that day. The day before last I accidentally saw him at a party and tried really hard not to show that I was a shamed. The day after he texted me asking if I still remembered and I told him yes. The entire time we were texting he was wishing he would have just asked me out, I was trying my best not to sound like a jerk in telling him it was too late and that I was dating someone now. I still want to be friends with him but for some reason I feel like I am cheating on my boyfriend. We said we would go on a hike on Monday. What should I do to fix an old wonderful friendship and make sure that he does not try for me?

I hear what you are saying about a relationship that wasn't a relationship.I wouldn't say that the first guy was a friend.he used you and made you feel bad. it takes 2 I understand that but out of the 2 you were the one that was hurt by it. he was the one to hold his head up high telling his friends. I do understand the feeling like you cheating. I'm going to say this if you are alone with the first guy you know what is going to happened so you can say you will cheat before it happeneds. You can't be in a relationship and have a guy as a close friend unless the guy you with also is a friend of the first guy.Now put yourself in your boyfriends shoes or if the shoe was on the other foot and ask yourself how you would feel. be happy with the one thats standing by you and making you feel like a young lady. go forward not backwards. going backwards can hurt you trust me on that. be a strong lady you deserve respect and noting less. you are young so what you learn today will help you as you grow.never let any person or man disrespect you in anyway.you will meet other guys so let it ge known I deserve respect because I am a lady.A real man will give you that. don't go for anything less. you tak care and think before you act. it will pay off I promise you that....