"Should I stay or should I go?"

My question is: Is he a bad guy? If not how do I make up for a bad performance and stop being so nervous around him? I like a guy with a bad reputation. The guy's reputation is that he treats women badly and cheats on them. He's over confident, arrogant, takes drugs etc. However, this is not the guy he shows me. He has always been nice and respectful to me and came across as being shy towards me, he would hurriedly walk away if I caught him watching me or if the conversation wasn't going the way he planned. He found out that I'd never had a ONS and so he offered, but this became more of a undefined FWB. I asked if he wanted to be my boyfriend as I always saw a good man in him. He said that the reputation was true and that maybe their was a small part of his heart was good. He also said that maybe he just wasn't meant to feel love. I don't believe this. If he could treat me with such respect, attentiveness and consideration then I have no doubt he can and will find love. I stopped seeing him and have now tried dating, but have found guys that come on too strong too fast and text pests that leave me having to change sim cards. 7 months on and out the blue he texts saying "I'm sorry i treated you badly. I miss you". We meet up and he cooks me a complicated dinner from scratch, is nervous the whole night, remembers and does everything that I asked for 7 months ago (albiet a bit ott). The night was lovely but my nerves and sensitive gag reflex spoiled the mood. A week has past since that night, I asked about meeting up again and he said he would love to but is busy and would be more free next week. I'm feel afraid that my nerves spoiled his idea of a perfect night he had planned for us.

start with friendship that way you will know him well