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My dad makes me feel bad

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So to start off with I'am a college student who lives away from home in res. on most days I stay there, unless it's a hoilday or the weekend since all my friends before college live where my parents home is. So on weekends I like to come home from my student room and relax see my mom because we get along really good, and see some of my friends if I can. I am a good student with my grades, and my classmates all think I'm nice and approachable. Actually everyone I know of doesn't really hate me at all......... But my dad. It's summer now and I at home since I had to take a summer full time course to catch up in my program since I started late. So I only have a two week break summer, and during that time I am home with my dad since he does not work because he has some disease that makes him sick. Anyway, it was my dads birthday when I finshed my school term and so I got him a present ( which I spent two hours trying to find the best book he would like), then I got him the best safeist card ( one which even he could not say I was making fun of him, or he takes personally, or he says that I don't really mean what is in the card), and then I bought him very nice warping that he could not think I was making fun of him ( no girlly colours like pink or light purple, no prison colours like black, grey or white, no animals or cute things, no colours he hates, etc). Anyways me and my mom travel back home and pick up a nice cake, and go home to celebrate even through he has the flu. So I give him the present which he loves and the card. I even have him blow out the candle so he can make his birthday wish , and tell him he can do the actual full thing the next day so he can have pictures even through me and my friends had things planned weeks ago. Any ways some things you should know about my dad he always has anger issues, he never has a constant mood( it goes from nice to mad and sad in any order), he has told me countless times that I am useless and he is smarter then me ( even through he never went to college only took a class once, and got worst grades than me in school), he loves to yell thinking that if he gets angery he can get his way, he all about revenge ( going over broad, like smashing all the kitchen containers one day when he through my mom throw out his machine when he just misplaced it) , he treats my mom like crap ( which is why she is now spilting up from him), he once told me that he disowned me for some small reason and to never talk to him again then got mad at me for not talking to him when he forgot, he likes to go from me and my sister of his favorite. And he always turns the constation back to him and the past even when he asked you what was wrong...... which he then as all his conenstations go for an hour at least about how I have mentally abused him, or my mom has, or sister. Or how his friends were in the wrong and he was perfect. Also if you ever tell him how he has been treating you badly or made you feel bad he claims to have a heart attack or panich attack, or starts to cry ( with or with out tears), and says that you are a evil person. Anyways a few days after his birthday he expects me to make him dinner when I am home, so I ask if 5pm is okay since I am not feeling well. So I go on my computer to talk to some one and I forget my computer is three hours behind , and one go to pick up some water for myself and give my dad another popiscle , when he says he was just going to go asleep ( which he is known for) so i say okay and go back to my computer. I realzie before 6:30 that my clock is behind, open my door and see that my dad gone to his room to sleep, also that in front of my door is the card I gave him and the present. So i guessed he got mad at me and was throwing back my gift ( which again he is known for). And then I still feeling unwell since I have a pain from my wisdom teeth that all need to be taken out because how they are growing, I skip dinner to sleep. My mom comes home, so I spend sometime with her. When my dad comes out and says " I hope you enjoy OUR book , like I enjoyed dinner' ( with sarcasm) . Repeting it, and then says that he won't eat the rest of the cake since it would taste of bitter some thing and that it would remind him that me and my mom where awful people. I wanted to tell him that he was childish, but he is hinting that he may have cancer ( which may be a lie, which he is known to do, like when he pretended to leave when my sister and I where small when he was just in the basement camping out and we cryied and had mom take the day off). I just feel awful, and I try to see it his way but he always makes me feel awful. Like what do I do, am I bad? Should I make all his meals like when I was a kid and never go out of the house not even for a small walk like a maid. Which he tryed to treat me and my sister as kids.

My dad makes me feel bad

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ego with depression cant change such people,stay away from him,he needs coun

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