Constantly sad ..

I'm at the point right now where i just can't cope with my feelings anymore. For years i've been really up and down with my emotions but for the past year i've struggled to feel ok for more than a few weeks at a time .. i have problems like anyone else and family issues which probably have screwed me up a bit, but the way i feel just doesn't seem appropriate for what i've been through. I don't know if it's because i'm weak but i cry at the smallest things these days, and i feel really scared of the future and like anything i do is wrong. I'm meant to be going to uni in a months time but i just don't know how i'm going to do it when i feel like crying all the time .. i guess i just want some advice on how to get rid of these negative thoughts i keep having, and how to stay positive when things go wrong? I'll be living at uni so i'm going to have to be ok with being around people all the time, and right now i'm finding it really difficult to pretend to be happy :/

Dear Isabel, I know how you feel because i have been trough some stuff and have been feeling like you did. I too always tried to be happy or pretended to be happy but in the end i was the one who was crying at night. The need to cry is very normal because (maybe) you cropped all the other feelings away, only keeping the happy one. I want you to know that you are definitely not weak, at all! If you have been trough some rough times and you just tried to keep smiling then that means you are damn strong! I was also thinking very negative about every single thing in life and the only way i stopped it was by talking to someone who was in the same kind of situation. You have too heal the open wounds because even if you would try to think happy right now, it wont work because of the luggage you are carying woth you. You need to get rid of it by talking to someone and try to heal yourself mentally. You will see that things are changing. It will feel really weird and at first i didnt want to believe things where getting better for me because i had always problems. But i promise you'll get used to it and after this you can try on thinking possitive. I have to say though it wont be easy, at all because you will feel very emotional and everything will be a little chaos in your head. I dont know if you have someone to talk too, but if you dont, you can always talk to me. I would like to help you trough this journey if you would want to, but if you do have someone that has simalar situation like you do then go to them. If you dont i can give you my email address so i can help you a little and listen to you. I just want to help because i didnt have someone to help me for a long time. I hope it was a little helpfull and I'll hear from you if you would like to have my email address :)

Isabel and YOUARENOTALONE, I am 48 yrs old next month and I have been going through an incredible bout of the same.. sadness, crying, negative thinking, unworthiness, unattractive, etc, etc. I'm not hearing or accepting my live in boyfriends love of almost a year and find myself accusing him of things that I am literally making up. I am "happy" or up for about a week and then out of no where I go negative. I have recently been researching being addicted to dram/chaos/pain as I too had some childhood issues surrounding emmotional neglect. I have been doing yoga and meditiation and positive affirmation, went back on anxiety pills after two years without. I have ended a long drinking stretch that I used to numb or drown the thoughts- don't do that! and I even saw a counselor for a month be sure it wasnt my relationship. I have everything going for me but I for some reason can not seem to embrace it and enjoy my life and be happy atleast for very long. I would love to talk with you both, I believe that we can help each other by giving and sharing our stories. I too am at my wits end but I know we are all strong and can overcome, perhaps we just need an extra hand to help us step up. I am here for you both and would be happy to share my email: [e-mail address removed] Please connect with me when you can. Namaste'