Love and fucking death

I was in love with a man who died recently. I lost my virginity to him 5 years ago and we hardly ever spoke about it because he had a girlfriend at the time. I was angry because I thought he would leave her but found out recently she threatened to commit suicide if he did. In spite, I dated one of his best friends and we never rarely spoke since. We always had chemistry and my boyfriend and his girlfriend were incredibly jealous and mine broke up with me over it, I was never sure if he loved me as much as I loved him though. 2 weeks before he died I broke up with my ex boyfriend and confessed how I felt, the next weekend he said we should go out for coffee and the Tuesday after that he died. His ex girl friend found me before the funeral and for some reason kept telling me how in love they were and that they were soul mates, I felt like I meant nothing and I probably did looking back. I want to move on from this but I have so many questions I need answers to and I can only get them from him. It has been 8 weeks since he died and I think about him 24/7. I have sunk into a deep depression and I can't seem to get out. I am in love with a dead man who didn't love me back and I will have to deal with the fact that I will never find out how he felt. He was 23 and deserved to live a long life, he was a good person..

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You've got 2 entirely different things going on and it sounds like the 2 things are creating confusion for you. First, you have death of a friend, and that in itself has a process to go through as you need to allow it. Second, it's the not knowing for you that is messing with your head, and you are letting it. Give yourself a break and focus on the greiving process that is neccessary for your healing and personal growth.