Runaway to LA?

I am a 16 year old student living in Illinois. Unfortunatly, my mom passed away this past new years eve, very unexpectedly. I have 3 older siblings who are all in college, and they are the only people that know what Im going through. It feels like I cant turn to anyone anymore. I have found that I havent been able to live up to the expectations that people have for me. My grades have been falling immensly becuase I physically cant focus on one thing for more than 15 minutes at a time. I feel emotionally numb and have lost passion for soccer (which I have been doing for 10 years now). And I no longer feel any connection with my friends or father. I want to leave and start a new life, but I am super indecisive about this. Any advice would be super helpful. Thanks!

Hi LABound, Oh, first up, my thoughts are with you. It must be very hard to loose a parent at such a hard time in life. I lost my dad a year ago and im an adult (well that is what the birth cert says anyway). What you are going through is normal, it is all part of the grief cycle. Have you tried to talk to your dad? remember he lost his life partner, so he will be feeling low too. You need to remind him that you lost your mum, and that is hard to deal with and you need help to cope. Say it bluntly to him, 'Dad i need help dealing with the loss of mum cause i am not coping'. Have you tried counselling? that may help too. Dont run away, as the grief is part of you no matter where you are in the world. Hope my words help. Remember it will get better, try to focus on little things at first, find a distraction, a new hobbie or sport. Take care and keep smiling