Pregnant, but not my husbands

I need advice. Many.of you will read the title and automatically assume im.filthy. Im disgusting how can.you do such a thing. So ill give u a little background. Before i met my.husband i was a single mother of two. We started dating things were great, eventually got married and that's where the trouble began. He started never wanting sex. Never wanting to do family functions, sleeping on the couch. Many a time ide vent but hede say im.dramatic and there's more to life than.the things i was.complaining about. Naturally we.grew apart, and slowly i started falling out of love with him. It didnt help that hes so.miserable.it affects my children. Well one day we had two childrens parties to.attend. He skiped outa the first.one but ended up.going to.the second bc it was nxt door. After an entire exhausting day i just wanted to.sleep.but his friends kept calling him.to.go.to their party. But since he never wants to do anything he sent me to go alone. So i went ended up getting invited to watch the fight afterwards at a bar, and the guy was ALL OVER ME. Weve been.friends for years and idk.i was drunk and it happened Oct 13th. When my period doesnt arrive.i get nervous. Sure enough.get a test and im pregnant. I.tell the guy and he wants abortion. I even tell my.husband.of my.infidelities and he says u made a mistake.now fix it and abort.it. He said no man would ever accept.u back after another man.impregnated u.but.i am now get rid of it and i swear we will start anew. I kno this sounds effed up.everyone but i want this baby. I.called the clinic even scheduled an apt but can't.being myself to.kill my baby. Im literally.going insane. My.husband keeps saying why.did this happen.to him what did.i ever do to u, and.as bad as i feel i still want.this baby even.if i have.to.do it alone. Pls help me!

talk to your hus about keeping the baby its tricky,maybe u dont have to choose

cut him loose, and take care of yourself and these children, that is what is important now.