I don't know what i'm feeling or why I'm acting this way...

Hi everyone. I'm a 23 year old gay guy and am currently in the army as part of a compulsory 2 year national service for all males in my country. I do not have much free time as i am in camp during the weekdays and yet, during the course of my service, i've met someone and we fell in love. We started as friends for benefits, after which, i felt like we were acting more like a couple and wondered if there's a possibility we could actually come to a common consensus on that. He wanted to stay as we are, which made me avoid him from then on. He then came back about a month later, saying he regretted letting me go and that he actually felt the same way, yet didnt know how to handle it. That's how we got together, and I'm his first love. He works as a tax officer; a regular day job. Recently, i've been having trouble accepting the way we are, and yet i dont really understand what is it that's wrong. I just do not feel happy somehow. This is especially so whenever he tells me of his plans with his friends and family while I, being stuck in camp, can only say ok. Sometimes, the plans even eat into the weekends; the only time we can spend together. I'm starting to think i cannot handle how he is so nonchalant about everything. There is nothing wrong with being optimistic and i know that, but somehow that does not seem like enough. I got so sick and tired of feeling this way, I called for a timeout, to have some time for myself alone to think things though, and even when he agreed to it without much objection, it upset me somehow or rather. Im starting to think that this time alone is not helping much, and i'm out of ideas on how to go about this. I do not want to feel this way anymore. Can someone please help me?

IMPODER, lucky he is laid back, imagine if he was demanding and as you do not have a regular day job that would be difficult for you, perhaps he is the way he is until he sees how all this pans out after you leave the service, right now he is as struck as you are, so no need to cause issues where there is none. Time solves everything just ride with it.