Mortified and upset

Back in May 2013, my husband and I went to my friends garden party. Wine was flowing and there was a lot drunk. My husband left early to bring our daughter home. So the next thing I remember I wake up in my own bed.(thankfully) anyway with a banging hangover I asked my husband what happened. He said I came home very drunk and went to bed. However I'm thinking what the hell happened at my friends house and how embarrassing it all was. So I text her how sorry I was. She didnt text back. So I talked to my other friend "ci ci" and she had no info for me. Ci ci advised me to phone her but I just couldn't as I felt ashamed. June and July passed by and still no contact from my friend. When it was her birthday I text her and she text me back which was fine however I just wanted her to ring me and say I was fine that night and nothing to worry about. I felt Ci ci knew more, but couldn't fill me in as it wasn't her place. Anyway I was at a cafe last week having lunch. I bumped into my friend and I apologised for my stupid idiotic drunk behaviour. and asked her what did I do. She told me that I felt her brothers through his jeans and his wife saw. I am absolutely mortified and so ashamed as his wife apparently stormed off. I still to this day cant remember a thing. I told my husband and he was fine as he remembers how drunk I was. I don't even know if I did it. Thank god he's understanding. I'm going for dinner at my friends with ci ci on Friday 8th November and feel ill as my friend was harsh. But I can't help feel what a total loser I am for that night. Any advice on how I'm going to cope on Friday night. As it's going to be like the elephant in the room. HELP Thanks for reading

Well, first off, it probably wasn't the smartest idea in the world to drink, seeing as how the night went in the first place. Secondly, during the dinner on Friday, I'd say that it'd be best to play this one "by ear." Your friend may or may not want another apology, so if you want to tell her again that you're sorry, then I'd try and determine what kind of mood she's in before you say something. I wouldn't mention the incident to anyone but her, because mentioning it to anyone else is unnecessary and will just make the dinner more awkward and stressful for you. The less said to the others the better. Try not to over-think what all is going on at the dinner on Friday. Play it cool, but if you think it'd be a good idea to apologize to your friend again, be sincere but don't drag it out. Hope everything goes smoothly!

Hi REDDLR239 Your response is very much appreciated. Thank you so much for being honest and kind.i understand I shouldnt have got so wasted and I'm still beating myself up over it. Ci ci says I may not even have done it as the wife has had affairs on my friends brother so the wife could have have exaggerated things, she was drinking also. I don't know as I dont remember anything. It will be just my friend ci ci and I tomorrow night. Anyway thank you so much again.

You've apologized, now leave it be unless you feel you need to apologize again but I doubt it's necessary seeing you weren't the only drunk person at that party. Just let it go - but remember when you feel like you would like "one more glass of wine" what happened, and avoid getting THAT drunk again unless you're at home. Good luck! L

Lovelace,thank you so much. I'm seriously dreading tomorrow. However I'm going to take the good advice on board. Sometimes I wish I was a person who didnt give a toss about feelings.