Am I a loser??

I left to run to the store this morning (gone 15 min) and came back to my bf...I don't want to say busting him, bc masturbating isn't a bad thing but I came in right as he had finished and was in the bathroom...so in a sense I caught him. I feel like he prefers porn and his hand over me. I was there this morning and he had no thought of maybe us being intimate. I am crushed.

Ok, you're not a loser. The thing about guys is that we get this thing called mourning wood. It can happen even if we aren't horny its a morning curse. You're bf probably just had a shower and decided to rub one out. I can grantee that you're thinking about this way more then he is. I cant advise anymore without knowing how intimate your relationship is. But I would imagine that if you were to get close tonight he would be very happy.