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I don't know why but i feel so run down lately. I have the most lovelest boyfriend i could have ever imagined and i have been with him for the past 1 and a half. He brings me so much happyness. I have been bullied and i am still trying to sort it out and i am in the middle of moving subjects at my college because of it and although i am more then happy with moving, i feel just fed up with everything. somedays i just want to sit and cry because to be quite honest, i just hate the way i am and teh way i have become. i am not suicidal or anythign else, but depressed maybe? somedays i just want to fall to sleep and never wake up. this is not just because of the bullying but i have not long lost my job due to my paperround, my whole house (im 17) just looks a mess, i feel like im living in a shit hole. im trying my best to keep on top of work, i am the eldest of 4 siblings and i just get so stressy all the time. i mean my boyfriend understands me but i cant keep being a burden to him i cant keep just comming out with all these problems as he will end up breakign up with me and finding a better girl with less problems to deal with and every little thing is just getting to me i just don't knwo what to do :'( i just need somebody to talk to :'(