Lost in my problem

I have been dating a girl for 2 year 1/2. I have a 6 year old with my previous relationship and I have shared custody with her mom (week with mom / week with dad). Now, my girlfriend is a teacher and since the beginning she's been very helpful with my relationship with my daughter. My daughter loves her and she loves my daughter too. Everyday my girlfriend drops my daughter to school and i pick her up from school. So, this past November i finally decided to make the big jump and get her the engagement ring. Unfortunately, everything went sour. So, the day before the buying of the ring (with her best friend) i decided, while she was at work to get the ingredient to make a lasagna from scratch. I added a little wine to the lasagna and i have one glass, two, tree... until i opened a second bottle. Been nervous, i called my friend all around the world to tell them and ask their advice. So, now this part is blurry, because i blackout completely and this part comes from people around me. Last thing i remember was that i called my best-friend and after i woke up in the police car. the story is that i left the lasagna cooking and it was burning when she came home. i was lying down and sleeping. she try to talk to meet but the only thing i did is go the bathroom and went back to bed. I guess she started yelling because now this is the critical part, i assaulted her. I took her by her hair and bite her in her wrist. She called the police on me and i didn't resist. They brought me to the police station ask question and i had to call my parents to bail me out. While waiting at the station another policeman came with 2 luggage with part of my clothes in it. My cousin (whom i met her through him) told me that she wanted to teach me a lesson and that she would not press charges but she did. Now, I can't go back to my place and get in contact with her(Unless a policeman is there). i try to called my cousin for some information but he's clueless about her intention. She did asked me if i wanted to live in the apartment which we have until June but i denied. Because even if i decided to stay,i could not bring my daughter to school because i work too early (before the school opens). So, i decided to live at my parents close to my work. And i only see my daughter one weekend out of two. Now, it's been a month, no news, she did however explain to me in a email about how she feels. She is aware of my intention; i have professional looking after me. A psychiatric (since 4 years ago), psychologist and a social worker form anger management. i still pay the bills (half the apartment, electricity and cable/internet). 3/4 of the furniture of the apartment is mine and she even said it to my cousin. so, been a nice person after all, i decided to scarifies my time with my daughter, let her a place to live and focus on myself for awhile. Now, we're in December and we go to court in March. I have writing a letter but i can send it to her or through someone. anyone one with suggestion? thank you

It seems like a very difficult situation. If you have had a history of things like this happening then I definitely suggest you keep up with the professional help because it is to everyone's benefit. In writing her letter what are you telling her? What would you like to achieve with the letter? Is she something you want and are willing to jump through hoops to save? Because it may take a whole lot of work to fix it but if you are serious and don't give up you can fix it. Us women forgive but do not forget, remember that. The most hurtful part of the situation was that you placed your hands on her. She is probably scared of you and scared that something of that nature could happen again. That is very critical at this point. You must find a way to show her that you are serious about making a change, serious about fixing yourself for the sake of yourself and the relationship. Keep working on you but someway try to keep her in the loop of your progress as well as your feelings for her. She needs this information and she also knows that you feel the same for her and need her in your life. It will be tremendous work to fix this so if you are not up for the challenge, then quit now!

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