out of control

iam a depressed unemployed wife whos husband is fighting in Iraq, while im going to the casino gambling I stay out for two weeks then go. im now taking more and more money that I shouldnt, I should never go back. I have spent thousands in one month and we dont have any of the money to loose.I think I gamble for other reasons, im depressed but try to fight it. I had a good job working 10 hrs aday plus over time for a year, no I feel so guilty he is fighting getting no sleep, its hot there 136% and im home depressed spending money. Why am I addicted?there must be a good reason emotionally. and If I dont have 10,000 dollares by oct. I could loose my house, and thats another story. what is wrong with me, im way out of control.