Need opinions

I fell in love with a boy when I was a freshman in high school, he moved to virginia for 4 years. We have been on and off again due to the distance and we are genuinely the bestest of friends you could ever imagine , like a married couple almost, we know each other and accept each other. Well here's my dilemma, I fell in love with another boy when me and my first love broke up for awhile. I've been with this other guy for about 2yrs now and I love him, I do but I feel like we have grown apart. I live with him. My first love recently moved back to town and he really wants to make me his. I really love him still. I've been sneaking out late at night to walk and meet him for the past few weeks. I've missed him so much. I slipped up and kissed him, we held hands, hugged longer , it just felt so natural. But I don't know whether it would be best for me to dump my 2nd love to be with my 1st love or not. I don't want to hurt anyone. But I want to be happy. They're both good men and love me entirely .

If you loved your first boyfriend absolutely then you would not have fallen in love with someone else....maybe your 2nd love was rebound? You live with your 2nd love and now because your first love has relocated back to town, you're sneaking out late at night to meet him! That alone should tell you how you feel about the situation because your actions are speaking. You are betraying the guy you live with. You are 'cheating' on him because, among other reasons, you used the word sneaking. In other words you are hurting him whether you want to or not...he just doesn't know it yet...all the more painful. He's a good guy, you said so...so why do you persist in hurting him? Is it because you really want to be with your Ist love? or have you missed him so much because he's "different?"..Does he fulfill something else in you that your 2nd love can't? On the other hand, if your first love was any sort of an 'alpha male" he would respect the fact that you're living with another guy and he would wait for you to end it. He most certainly wouldn't meet you behind your 2nd (present) lover's back! If you want/need to dump your 2nd love for your first love, then do it....But be careful, because what goes round comes round...

What you need to do is tell the 2nd one instead of sneaking around it's the worst thing u can do is keep cheating wile living with the person