I gave him my number, he didn't reply. Should I send this letter?

Dear Emil, I write this letter to you because I have been patiently awaiting a phone call from you for over three days now, a phone call which may never come. I met you one Friday evening about five weeks ago behind a sophisticated hotel bar and immediately developed a liking to you. When I had to rush home that evening and forget to settle my bill, when I went back the following day to settle it surprisingly you were working. We were able to to have intermittent conversations when you did not have guests to serve. Yes, I was very much attracted to your chiseled Swiss looks but once I started speaking to you and observed you behind the bar I realized you were more than a pretty face. Emil, one of the things I admire about you is your work ethic; the determined and perfectionist expression you have on your face whilst concocting each cocktail was sometimes watched by myself in awe. During our first conversation you simply ranted and rambled about your life and barely asked me any questions about my life which I found rather disconcerting. I ignored this feeling and focused on asking you more questions because I wanted to get to know you. This may have been to my detriment. You shared with me details of your life ranging from your parents marriage to what you were hoping for in a long term relationship/marriage, to your hobbies and interests. I was and still somewhat confused to why you would share such intimate details about your life to a stranger, but fortunately I am using that information to try and understand you better. Especially through this current predicament of mine. The two times after that I attended the bar after you were not working but I still sat down and had a drink.Your colleagues teased me about you and I endured it, honestly I even enjoyed it at times because I did not think they would be cruel enough to romantically tease a guest/customer about one of their colleagues if their colleague was not remotely interested in the girl/person. Am I wrong?! One of your colleagues even offered me your number and told me when you were working next when I asked (this was only for the last Saturday night I saw you). Personally, if one of my colleagues/friend at work was doing that and I was not romantically interested in the girl I would be very angry. I considered what they were doing to be light bantering because your feelings was mutual. I am still unsure if I am convincing myself of that or I actually believe it because I do not believe they would be that nasty. I put myself out there for you Emil, but I do not think I came across too strong. You only saw me in the bar four times in five weeks after it was obvious I had a crush on you, we only had a proper conversation three of those times, I do not think I came across as an obsessed stalker and I hope you do not think of me as one. Although I did add you on Facebook after I added your friend I met that first night, I did not find that unusual as I spoke to you for some time that night and thought you would want to be friends?! Maybe I should have asked first?! Nonetheless, when I attended the bar whilst you working you seemed friendly towards me, we flirted and bantered a little (or so I thought) when you were not busy, you knew from your colleagues I had a crush on you so if you did not feel the same I would have thought you would have advised me. This is what normal considerate people do. I know I have never been good with first impressions and you seemed somewhat cautious of the real reason I was hanging around a hotel bar. Besides the fact I obviously attended the bar, I do not think I was overly obvious of my affections to you. At times in the bar, I do admit I behaved like a mere-cat at times which could have depicted that I was on the look out for someone (else) to talk to, maybe a celebrity you may have thought? I mean, I did ask you quite a few times if you had any high profile guests attend the bar recently/that night. Maybe you thought that was the genuine reason I was there? Maybe you thought I was using you? And maybe the original reason I was there was the make contacts, but that does not detract from the fact I did develop a crush on you. I do recall you asking me somewhat unusual questions regarding the issue of my intentions whilst I on a night out; whether I was looking to have sexual relations with certain people etc. which I found very unusual. I considered those questions very blunt and somewhat offensive, especially as some of these questions were asked during the first proper conversation we had! I was also a little shocked when you asked these questions as we barely knew each other but I knew I can behave in such ways at times so I more or less attempted to analyse your behaviour. The only reason I could think of at the time to why you would ask these questions is because you were interested in me. I mean, this is why I, personally would ask someone these questions. But I guess what I consider the possible reasons behind certain questions may not always be the case hey?! But then I thought maybe you were asking these questions to gauge my true intentions for initially and possibly currently attending the bar? I guess I would never know. Despite that, I know I said and did some dubious things that may have not have depicted I had feelings for you. I was already feeling very vulnerable by putting myself in a position where I felt that strongly for a guy that I would go to his work place every now and then, not to mention I knew you knew (and your colleagues knew) I had a crush on you. Try putting yourself in my shoes Emil, this was not a comfortable place to be in. I attended the bar in an attempt to talk to you, to get to know you better and vice versa. I was also hoping you would also be attracted to me and eventually ask for my number. I thought the fact you saw me three times, had intermittent conversations with me was enough to gauge if you also had feelings for me and ask for my number. But that was not the case and I had enough. I was sick of waiting and I was a little over attending the bar and looking like a love-sick puppy. I wanted answers. I decided I would give you my number instead. Let me ensure you I have never given a guy my number in my life without him asking for it so this took courage, courage that you did not seem to acknowledge nor reciprocate. Before I handed you my number that night, one of your good mates Antonius advised me you asked of me a few weeks ago when he was over at your place, not only that he encouraged me to give my number to you as he stated you needed 'a little push'. Yes my timing was horrible, I apologize for it. I apologize for what may have appeared to be flirting with two other guys at the bar half an hour before I gave you my number. I also apologize for not having the courage to refuse to give that guy my number. I know how it looks Emil, but ask you colleagues how many other guys had they seen me give my number to whilst I attended the bar when you were not working?! If you do like me, I know you may be feeling hurt and confused especially when you asked me those questions of whether I was flirting with those guys and if I gave them my number. And not to mention also when you kept repeating that I gave 'two guys my number tonight'. Emil, I hope you can eventually put your anger aside and see the whole picture. Lilah xx

I agree I wouldn't send the letter its way too much better to talk to him in person.