Torn

Ive never done anything like this before, but i cheated on my boyfriend of almost 4 years a few weeks ago. Ever since its been killing me. We were on a break and the guy it happened with has been a friend of mine for a long time, but recently ive developed feelings for him, i cant explain them. Now he regrets what happened, we were both very drunk and hes saying he doesnt think its a good idea for us to hang out until im over my feelings for him. Weve managed to talk over things for a while now, and hes always said what if, and that he would be interested in no strings attatched because hes been without any action for a while. But after this happens, he seems like he never said any of this, and im not sure what to make of his signals! Me and my boyfriend are back together, and the friend and i are agreeing its best for both our relationships with him if he doesnt know, although i hate lying to him, id hate hurting him even more. I do love him, and the thing with this guy was a drunken mistake. But i still cant stop thinking about it, i want to see him, as a friend i think. I feel awful and i guess i just need to vent and talk about my problems to someone objective..Help!

Based on the fact that you have feelings for him, I would consider it a bit dangerous to think that you can get along as just friends, and still hope to maintain your current relationship.