Alone and no one to talk to

In my country I am part of the minority. It feels like I am worth nothing, not wanted, just a pest in the eyes of the majority. My husband is not being promoted because of his race in our government, he is being victimisted, discriminated, bullied, lies are being told and no one wants to stand up and fight for us. I suffer from depression and I am on medication for it but matters are so out of control I feel like it is no longer worth living through it all. I cannot consult with anyone, cannot go to family, friends or colleagues because I feel I am burdening them. My anxieties are affecting my husband and I do not want to talk to him because I am scared he will just give up. My hobbies and interests no longer interest me, I struggle to get up in the mornings, cook dinner in the evenings. Everything feels like a mission. I just want to cry all the time. The unfair practices of others get me down, I am not one to take recognition for someone elses hard work. But why do others feel they have to do it to my husband. My faith and hope are starting to dwindle. Life is hard but it should not be this hard should it? I lost my dad last year to cancer and now when I need a hug he is not here. My husband cannot fill this gap right now. I am starting to resent him for our situation all I want to do is have everything go right and our way for a change.

Pinkypony, there are places in the world where your race, caste , creed do not matter at all! Find such a place and move out. Why should you remain unhappy when there are chances for you both to be happy?

~~~Cyber Hugs~~~ I am so sorry for all of your pain. The struggles you are facing will be what makes you stronger, humble, and a much greater person. Time heals all wounds....don't give up. You have to find a w at to let go of the pain. Close your eyes and imagine a place that you are free of your troubles and worry. Play this through in your mind several times a day. Allow yourself to feel good even ed hen everything seems unbearable. I know things a tree tough right now as I too have had to face struggles that seemed impossible to get through. I close my eyes and imagine the ocean....Think of the wave s as t hey crash to the shore. I make myself appreciate the things I do have...food..shelter and let go of the things I cannot change for time will fix everything.

Hearing that time heals doesn't help right now. I am in the same emotional state as you. You do not deserve this treatment. Can you move? Can you get away for a bit? I know how lonely you feel as I am so lonesome too. Volunteering to help others often makes one feel needed and gives purpose to our lives. Could you try that? Oh how my heart goes out to you.