Confused & broken hearted

I was with my by for 3 1/2yrs would have been 4 this coming month. I am very hurt & confused by the current situation clearly or I wouldn't be posting here I don't have anyone really to talk to that isn't tired of listening to me,but I have been going through some hard times with some injuries I sustained in a accident and have been experiencing side effects from my medication as well....which took a toll on the relationship. .I will own up to it, unfortunately I can't stop taking the meds...we were suppose to move into his house together but with his ex wife still being on the mortgage and him being closed down to me emotionally and he wasn't contributing to the house hold or helping me out, I had some reservations. I kicked him out,but I expected him to fight or try to salvage our relationship. I asked him during our relationship if he wanted to be here didn't seem like it. While he was moving out he kept making comments how I wanted him out so bad yet he didn't even start packing. I did & I didnt. So I just was devastated when the first night he moved out he had a female come over and asked if he could take my alcohol. The first night in his home, he claims she was a female friend who was never over before? I saw texts he had with him inviting her over while his last night at my house. I tell him I just want a break to take a step back to try to clear my head of these meds and get a handle on the side effects..he turns around and says to me I didn't say it was a break sounding as if he is crying,that I made it sound like it was done,than he flips on me says he doesn't love me doesn't want a relationship with me, doesn't even want to do that with me anymore. Makes comments to me every time I talk to him or see him how limited I am or I'm so aggressive etc. That's the side effect of my meds...even his mother will dig at me occasionally. .I am trying my best to deal with the meds I'm on I can't stop taking them because of the severe migraines I have. I really feel.it's low that they are low for constantly at me for something I can't help. I'm trying. He went and made online dating profile 2wks after this I just couldn't believe we were suppose to move into a house together and he is online looking for a relationship 2wks later..we have a 2yr...just was having a really hard time wrapping my brain around it and he would say things to me the worst case scenario is our daugther moved in, he wanted to keep the keys to my house, he wanted me to stay on the family plan with him and thesee confusing things....I was so confused I cut off all contact with him and solely exchange our daughter through his parents. ..I couldn't take the emotional ping pong...I got a text about something else and we digressed and I called him a relationship jumper not to be mean but unfortunately it's what he seems to be...he can't seem to be alone with himself...so I said so to him...but my issue is he claims to have a 'girlfriend' he only sees on Saturday's because she lives an hour away... so he won't work on ours...but will drive an hour each way for one day a week...it hurts...I guess I'm confused because his parents came to my house telling me that he told them that I was the one, and he was afraid of losing me, even after he was afraid of losing me, but when I asked him if he said that he told me they weren't suppose to tell me that so...wth?? .. I just cut off contact...maybe someone on here can have some insight this person is 37 BTW Ya 37.....thanks for listening to my rambling

Going by his actions, he has decided to move on. It doesn't matter if you say he's a relationship jumper or whether he is or not, the fact is that if he was happy with you and your relationship was solid, he'd be with you supporting you,(or attempting to)through a difficult time. It doesn't matter what age he is, if he's gone and made an online dating profile(amongst other things), then he's basically left the relationship. It's all ok for him to tell his parents what he supposedly really feels, but he needs to act on them. Words are just words, while actions speak. More importantly, you need to get yourself healed and independent from your meds so you can be happy for your daughter. She needs you to be healthy and happy. For now, you need to concentrate on YOU.

Ya I am un fortunately they will not take me off this medication. So I am trying homeopathic remedies to combat the side effects and by having no contact with him helps me to heal...he is not suppose to contact me & he did the other day about the last cell phone bill I removed myself from his plan and went on my own. I am separating myself completely from him so I can heal. As much as I can given we have a child. I already advised him I would pay my half minus his phone payment. It'd nor due until the 26th..so I again informed him that and advised him not to contact me..I need to separate myself to heal. SO I have been doing that. I asked his parents why he wasn't there telling me this they gave me some bs response of him not being good with feelings but like u said I am too a firm believe of actions speak louder than words...just helps to get this all out of me and off my chest..