Failure

I feel as if I am a failure at life......I spent a few years in college and was not serious so I goofed around. At the age of 26 I got serious and I'm able to foster my way through college. I am taking a diploma program that is 8 weeks and in 3 to 4 years I'll be finished with ny bachelor's. I have had serious bouts of depression and I lost my brother in 2012. I am now 27 and I feel like a d failure because I'm jobless, my mother and I share a home, and I feel like a failure at life........I recently broke up with my ex because of his lies, cheating and general mistreatment of me. He feels he is better than me because he has a home and a good paying job as a truck driver......I feel less than nothing. I sometimes think of days to end my life. I try to thank God and count my blessings, but it seems he has also abandoned me.

Failure? You got rid of a crappy boyfriend who was lying and treating you badly. Sounds like a win in my book. Trust me you read enough of these post about women who stay FOR YEARS with a crappy man and you can see who the truly strong individuals are to get rid of the crap before wasting half their lives. And as for goofing around till age 26 don't think of it that way. There is no set way to live your life. No rule that reads must enter college at 18. You took the scenic route. The one with the better view. You got some world experience. Hopefully learned something's about yourself and life and are now ready for school. Better then entering at 18 picking a career out of a hat, finishing years of school and then finding out you hate it and have to go back and learn a new career any way. Sorry about your brother. Noting can be done to fix that. Just know that you are living with your mother and that maybe it is a help to have her daughter there with her since she so recently lost her other child. I'm a mother of two and I know It would be a great help to me to have my child with me during a hard time like that. You're doing great. You in school, your old enough to have a little life experience on you, young enough to have lots of energy left, you're helping out your mom emotionally, newly single and ready to find Mr. Right or just play the field. Get a part-time job for a little spending money and have a blast.