He won't hear the truth

I have lied in the past so I understand why were having thus current issue. But now he doesn't believe me when I'm telling him the truth. He thinks he has proof that I'm lying about one particular instance, but I'm truly not. He is do sure that he kicked me out and though we talk several times a day and he wants me home, he's refused to take me back until I admit that I am lying. I love and miss him so much that after four awful weeks without him I am wondering if I should in fact make up a lie and tell him what he wants to hear. I am so against this as an option, but I'm desperate and I'm not willing to accept life without him in it. What to do??????

Do NOT lie just to tell him what he wants to hear. If you do this, then you will end up lying all the time just to make him happy, and you'll end up compromising yourself big time. He says he has proof of you lying? Ask him to show you the proof. Look for anything that you can to show him that you weren't lying. It's hard now because you lied in the past, so trust isn't really an option - it will have to be rebuilt. But, building false trust by lying to please him will not help either - because eventually he will learn that you tell him what he wants to hear, and he'll never know whether you are being honest or just lying to keep him happy. If he doesn't want to listen to you, or if he's so hung up on this one instance, maybe this shows you that this one instance is more important to him than the entirety of your relationship. I know it's hard that you lied before, but if he really loved you and valued your relationship, he would forgive you and find ways to mend the trust. It seems to me that he wants to prove you a liar more than he wants to be with you (since he has let 4 weeks go by without seeing you). So, you being a liar is more important than you yourself. Do you really want to be with someone who places more importance on whether or not you're a liar, than the importance they place on you as a person and the relationship they have with you? All in all, I would talk to him and tell him you're not going to say that you lied because you were really telling the truth. If he breaks up with you over this, then he really wasn't worth your time in the first place.

Is he accusing you of cheating? Don't make up a lie to appease him. It might help better if you told me what you lied about in the past. Did you cheat on him in the past & he found out about it?