My sad life

hi , my name is leila and this is my problem i'm 17 never been in a date, never been kissed, never lived a romantic story and all this is because of my mom she won't let me go out with my friends (girlfriends) in day time or at night shi is so severe with me i don't no why she cant trust me this is my last year at high school all my friends are going away to porsuit their dreams and this is my last year with them but she wouldn't let me go out with them have sleep overs nothing at all moreover she don't treat my two brothers like that they go out every time they want , i tried to explain to her that i'll be 18 soon ill be an adult i can understand the good thing and the bad things but she cant understand me she won't let me have my space of freedom i feel like i'm in jail .. in envy my friends when they start to tell me about thier romantic lives bcause i don't have one and i won't as long as my moither is like that when i tell her that i need her to trust me she tell me that she do trust me but she is afraid that something bad is going to happened to me :( i can't continue my life like this i just can't please help me to convince her that she have to let me go and give some freedom . as far as dad i barely see him he is always at work. i want to have a normal life like every girl in my age i want to fall in love with someone and go out & have fun with my friends is this to much to ask for?? she even refused to let me go to college on another town ! i love my mother i do but i cant live like this ..every saturday night my friends are out and im n my room crying and wondering why i have to suffer like this i can't understabd why !!!

hi leila ,im so sorry for the position you find yourself in with your mother,in one way she is trying to protect you and in another shes suffocating you you are old enough to live your life and do as you please,you must try and talk to your dad ,does he and your mum get on do they go out as a couple has something happened in her life to make her feel like this about you, if you cant speak to your dad you must sit your mum down and tell her that you want to go out with your friends try the cinema so she knows theres no drinking involved and give her a time you,ll be home and stick to it so she can trust you,if she doesnt she must see that shes destroying your life .try and talk to her but be firm.

thank you so much ponty for caring about my issue , well my dad and you'll be surprised to know it is worse than my mum :( and i've already tried the movies and coming at time to home but nothing seems to be enough for her she is killing me ! actually several times i thought about sucied and i still have the marks of a knife on my veins but i couldn't do it :( but i couldn't do it my life is not going to be better in hell than here! as far as her romantic life with my dad there is NONE!!!