Alone and lost

i have been really depressed lately for about 6 months now ive felt this way.ive started a new course at a new university and im having real trouble making friends, im really shy and i find it hard to make conversation.i always end up sitting back and letting other people talk i get really nervous in social situations and just cut myself off. it really bothers me that ill be alone in life with no friends or love. im becoming more reclusive not wanting to go out anywhere because i find it too hard and its just easier and less stressful. i think everyones got a better life than me and everyone is better than me. i want a good career and i want a life but i just feel pathetic and like theres no hope for me. i feel like i have a personality but i never let it show for fear of being hated or laughed at..i dont understand whats wrong with me but i cant shake it off...i really want to change but i dont know how too. has anyone got any advice or help or just has felt similiar..thanks Laurax

Well for years i felt this way like i had to fit in, be the same. but my nan died and she was the biggest thing in my life and i realised why waste my life being someone i'm not. so don't worry about being hated, by the sounds of it you seem like a really thoughtful person, just let yourself go a bit, you deserve happiness, and remember your as good as any other person out there, no matter what anyone says. X