Guy bestfriend

So uh where do I begin? Um my guy best friend lets call him Eric. Weve known each other since 5th grade. Ive liked him since about 5th then 7th and 8th grade. Then later in the last few months of 9th grade he told me he liked me. So a few months later i admitted my feelings. We started talking but we didnt talk much. When 10 grade started we were kins of talking but i got mad at him for asking me for pics. So we were fighting and he said i shouldnt be mad because were not even talking and hes talking to another girl. A month later he apologized and i got over it but i was always jealous when he gave someone attention. I movedbon (or so i thought) and i had a huge crush on this kid seth. Whenever i talked to eric about him, he got mad ( i didnt notice it though) and said he was ugly and such. I just fiigured he just didnt like him. It kept going like this for the rest of the year. Then the last month of school. I got mad at eric again because he pretty much tried to blackmail me, so i told him he was cut and i dont want any form of contact with him. In July i fot a message from him pretty much, he was apologizing and asking me to talk to him again. So i did, then we had a few conversations basically just catching up. Then he kept asking me to hangout which was normal because he wants me to hangout with him alot but i never have because im pretty much barely allowed outside the house. He pretty much told me he just wanted to hanfout with me then he was gonna admit hes liked me since january. Which kinda made sense. So again i didnt tell him i liked him back for a while. And i realized ive never stopped liking him and rhat i was jealous all those times because i wanted his attention. So i told him how i felt, and we were talking and school startes again. But we didnt really text much like we used to when we were in 10th which was everyday or every other. So i tried starting the conversations but everytime i did he was either busy, not interested, or he just didnt respond but then like once every two weeks he would start rhe conversation and call me baby and all these things and say he still likes me and wed talk all day. And he would say he wants to hangout with me bur everytime i suggest like the mocies or something, he just says his house always his house. I told him like no weve never hyng out before and for me to just go to your house is weird to me. So he just said okay.But again i felt neglected, so after a while of him barely talking to me in pwrson and outsideod achool, i decided i would just call it of and just remain friends. But he just tried to like explain the reasons why then he just apologized then he just agreeed and ignored me. So a week latwr i tried to talk to him. And he said i had hurt his feelings. So he just said that he doesnt want me for sex (i always think he does) and that he actually thinks he loves me so i said it back because i honestly believe i do. Because all these years its always been him. So we decided were going to try and talk again. But again weve onlt have like one conversation since. And i feel like im the only one putting in effort. And he wants to hangout but i know that id or when we do. Hes gonna ask me to be his girlfriend. And idk if i can because ive never been in a relationship before and im 16. Ive only kissed/made out with a boy and thats was back in elementary. I want to be able to show him my affection and express my feelings better but i dont think i can. Im scared of being rejected or scared of being open with him about my feelings. Also im allowed to date but my mom said she wants to meet who it is before i fo on the dates. But i dont think theres a point because if theyre not worth it then it was pointless. That andni just dont want her too. But how can i go hangout with him if i need to get a ride to hise house and shed have to drive me. She aalso doesnt let me out the house to hangout with friends unless she knows whk it is and have talked to their parents. Ive thought about lying and saying im hanging out with one of my girl friends but shed still be nosy and talk to their parents and stuff. That and i think she would drive to see if im there. . I dont think shed let me hangout with a boy at his house. Help me please?!

You say this guy is your best male friend, how much time do you spend with him as friends? When a guy is into you he wants to spend as much time with you as he can, wherever that has to be, you wont need to put much effort in if he really likes you let alone loves you. Can it hurt to let your mum get to know a guy you like enough to date? Are you fairly close to her? Lying to her will only damage whatever relationship you have with her and will make her unable to trust you. She's probably being protective of you because to her 16 is still really young and she knows you can get hurt by guys. There are a lot of jerks out there and she's more likely to recognise one than you are. If a guy is lovely to you, he should be lovely to her too so why wouldn't she let you date a lovely guy? Have a think about what you want from a relationship, why do you want to be in one?