Is history repeating itself?

I started dating this girl in April of 2007. Things moved fast and within 6 months we were engaged. It has been a rollercoaster ride ever since. After being off work for several months, I found a really good paying job that had me out of town 3 weeks at a time. It started out good but as time went on I noticed her getting more and more distant only to learn that she was trying to get some guy from her past to date her. Being a romantic, I would celebrate a monthly anniversary and on one such anniversary date, she told me she had made plans for the evening before to go to the movies with her girlfriends but it had been rescheduled to our anniversary evening. Trying to be an understanding person, I agreed that it would be fine and we could just switch the evenings around. I then discovered after she left that evening that she had in fact canceled the evening with her girlfriends and had setup a date with this guy where they went to the movies and out for drinks after. I went out to see an old (female) friend that night and we sat and had a few drinks and discussed how I should approach this. I was deeply hurt by all of this but felt so in love with her I thought we could work things out. After all, it wasn’t like they were making out or sleeping together. It was the lies about what she was up to and her intentions that bothered me the most. When I confronted her on it, she denied it all. She told me to ask him if I didn’t believe her so I did. I emailed him asking him what his intentions were towards my fiancé. He replied back and told me he only saw it as two old friends getting together and did not know it was supposed to be a special evening for us and he did not understand why she would have lied and kept it a secret. I confronted her with his response and she took her ring off and told me it was over. Since we owned a house together, we continued living together for several months and within a couple of weeks we started sleeping together again. We agreed this was more friends with benefits and I was going to move out at some point after we figured out the house situation. The agreement was no dating until this happened since the only reason we did not just go our own ways was because there are children involved. I then discovered she broke that agreement. She met some guy through a dating site and was sneaking out while I was at work to go see him. Again, apparently no physical relationship existed between them, it was getting out to see each other and getting to know each other better first. She didn’t see any of this as wrong doing on her part, and yet she continued to lie and deny all of it. Having enough, I moved out and she was upset by the fact that she was not stuck with no job and trying to pay the mortgage and bills all on her own. For the kid’s sake, I would give her some money to help with the bills and in return she gave me use of one of her vehicles since with buying the house, I had sold my vehicles to eliminate the loan payments. She continued seeing this guy but at the same time was coming over to my new place every second day and we were supposed to be officially dating again. She didn’t want to tell anyone since she had told everyone what a jerk she thought I was and didn’t want to have to defend herself. We agreed this would be the best course of action at least until we knew for sure this was going to work. One night, she again canceled a date with me claiming to be going out with girlfriends. The problem was one of the girls she was supposed to be out with was online. I still had her email password, which at the time she was unaware of and decided time to check things out. Sure enough, she was on a date with this guy. I found an email sent a couple of nights before sent right after leaving my place (where she told me how much she loves me) sent to this guy telling him how much she loves him for being so patient with her. I also found that she sent out nude pictures I had taken of her and was supposed to be just between us sent out to 2 ex boyfriends as well as this guy. Again I confronted her on this. We argued and broke up. It was my birthday in a week and she clearly had no plans to celebrate it with me so breaking up only lead to opportunity for me. I began talking to an old female friend who was going through the same thing with her now ex and she decided to come celebrate my birthday with me. One thing leads to another and this new girl was still there in the morning. My now ex learned of this a week later as was so heart broken, she broke it off with the other guy and came running over to my place. I asked her to leave several times and she refused. We spent the entire night talking and eventually agreed to give the relationship another try. Things went along great, I was concerned that after several months of dating she clearly had not told anyone we were back together and she would get upset to learn that I had told any of our mutual friends we were. She claimed to have told only her closest girlfriend and family but didn’t want to hear any negative feedback from the rest so was hiding the relationship from them. I soon found myself laid off from work and looking for new work. In an effort to build our relationship stronger I took her on a romantic trip to the mountains where we spent the entire weekend just enjoying each others company. After returning, I resumed my quest for new employment but was not finding anything. I found a job offer across the country and discussed it with her. She said it would be great for us to move and get a fresh start away from all our old friends so we could start new. I packed up all I could take with me and gave everything else away with the belief that we had a chance at finally getting the new start we both needed. I arrived at my destination only to discover that while in transit, the company decided to fill the position with another person. She and I talked about it and everything was fine, I would just stay here and continue looking for work. She complained that she didn’t have any money to buy food so I sent her some money putting myself in financial hardship but I knew I have food and a roof over my head so it was just my recreation money I was giving her. All seemed fine until a few days later when she told me she could not talk because she was going over to her friends place and they were going out for coffee. I was not impressed since I had given up my ability to do anything like that and she was clearly spending the money I sent her on going out. I then discovered she had signed up for a dating site and went the following weekend to a singles dance where she stayed overnight with some girl friends in a hotel room. I saw posts on a website with her saying things like it would be great since this was the first time the 4 of them were single and free to do as they pleased. When confronted on this, she accused me of stalking her and blocked me from seeing any further details about her or what she posts on this site and emailed a bunch of our friends telling them I was stalking her through their profiles and had them block me as well. Needless to say things kept going downhill from there. She was less available to talk and even lied and said her phone and internet was cut off and will be until she gets some money to pay the bill. I then discovered by talking to a mutual friend concerned that it was a safety issue not having a phone and he told me “dude, she is online right now”. She was appearing offline to me and clearly going all over the net and talking to other people while pretending to not have any service. All attempts at contact to her we met with either no response or she would attack me and claim she was not doing any of what I had said she was. I didn’t suspect she was trying to meet or having anything to do with anyone else but then saw posts to an old boyfriend of hers who she claimed and been so physical with her that he put her in the hospital for several weeks when she dated him almost 18 years ago. She posted that she misses him and that she would call again soon. He had replied with comment about someone matching her physical description who was taking his heart away and that he was heading to the city she lives in come spring. I just discovered his plans to go there are also because his father is very ill so it doesn’t necessarily mean the comments are related to her in anyway but when I questioned her as to why she is even talking to someone like this, she replied first she isn’t and then when quoted as to what was said between them on a public system, she then tried to say he isn’t the ex she told me about and that he is gay so I should quit worrying about him. So now I don’t know what to believe. Is history just repeating itself or is my concern that it will causing all the problems. After I confronted her about the dating site, she hid her profile on the site and since it has the ability to show when she was last online, I can see that she seldom visits it. The last such visit was to hide her profile almost a week ago. I am left wondering am I being too suspicious and is what I am doing considered stalking or am I being played so that I don’t force the sale of the house. Is she sincere in saying she still plans to move here come spring or is this just a backup plan in the event that she can’t afford to keep up the bills and or find someone else? Should I continue with plans of saving money to move her and the kids here or just move on with my life and start dating other people again knowing that all this is a game with her so that she can find someone else but keep me on the hook until she does?

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