Teen guy Strugling with sexuality

Huhhh hmmm.. How Do i start it off? I have never had problem with my sexuality before. I am not even sure if I have them now. I have always been straight an grew up in a society where gay people did not really exist. I am only 18, but I have had a couple sexual partners. Every consented time was with a girl. ( I had a tough upbringing) I don't find guys attractive, but this girl I was messing around with had this really weirdinteresting fetish where she wanted to see a straight guy with a gay guy. We stopped it, but since then, it has been at the back of my mind. I am thinking about sucking a guy off, and it kinda feels intriguing to me.. like I really want to do it. Please help.. I dont even know what I am asking for help with.. but anything!

Sometimes when we associate with someone they manage to transfer their fantasies to us. If you had been straight all along, this could only be a passing fantasy. Moreover the element of attraction in this need not be attraction to same sex but could also be the power play. May be you like someone to dominate you sometimes?

I am not sure.. I mean I am not attracted to guys. But I was having sex two nights ago and I was thinking.. like obsessed with a dick being better. it is becoming super sexually frustrated by it.

why not try it with somebody you can trust and see if you like it? personally i feel like your sexual needs should be explored this is coming from a bisexual female. Tend to get a different kind of thrill sleeping with the opposite sex but still extremely enjoyable.

First, let's just be very clear -- there's nothing long with liking or not liking any harmless thing. Boys, girls, trannies, or grannies, it's all fine to like or not like. So when I hear you ask for help, what I hear is that something is appealing to you, but you're dealing with social burden. Like a girl who just really likes baseball, but has to fight for her right to "just like baseball" (she might not even be a tomboy at all). Or a boy who wants to do ballet. Do you believe there are straight ballet boys? Well there are. Also, don't get stuck in old social ideas that say "there's no such thing as bisexual" or "sexuality never changes". That's pure nonsense. Here's a link to the story of my sexuality identity and how it changed (multiple times) over the years. Perhaps it'll make you more comfortable with accepting sexuality as it changes. http://www17.brinkster.com/chajadan/Evolution.html