Feel like I am crazy

Hello to you, who is reading this I am 15 years old, and might just be the smartest person in my school (I am doing the highest possible highschool in my country). I think a lot, maybe too much. By doing this I often come to the conclusion that everyone is pathetic and life has no purpose. Anyway, the problem is I feel like I am going crazy, because I am thinking about weird things, which "normal" people of my age don't really think about. I have a lot of things I want to do, but often these things seem nearly impossible, or beyond my grasp. I feel like I am a weird, but the thing is I don't really mind that I am different. I think, that if I would fully express myself in real life, I would almost get bullied to death. This post probably is a bit weird, but I just felt like sharing some things. Comments, thoughts and questions are welcome!

(Scuse the quick hi-jack, PBS, just wanted to say to Susiedqqq - good to have you back, missus, you've been sorely missed! :-))

Well maybe those thoughts are negative, but I am not suicidal or anything. I don't really feel like talking to anyone about it, because it would make a very awkward conversation and drastically change the way that person looks at me. They might even become overconcerned or something like that. I have looked at life in a negative way since I became a young adult. I don't hate life, but it just makes me sad when I look at the world and see so many stupid people.

I understand how you feel but sometimes you need to talk to friends of just enjoy the world of pathetic people. You could also find people that accept you for who you are.

"I don't hate life, but it just makes me sad when I look at the world and see so many stupid people." Hah! As AMSTO said - join the club! Behaving stupid is just a form of procrastination or avoidance if you sit and think about it. All these people out there needing to get from A to B who go needlessly yet willingly or downright wantonly and self-indulgently via C, D, E, F and whatever else, overcomplicating and elongating everything. Wittingly or otherwise, all they're ultimately trying to do is fill their lives full of problems and difficulties, theirs or other people's, in order to slow themselves down or send themselves off at tangents... anything to avoid progress, as if said delays can somehow halt or delay the passage of time as inexorably sends them on their track towards intimidating life challenges/stations and, beyond those, their dying day... or even just because they're bored and under-utilised and trying to self-spice-up. They learn, though. Because life doesn't LET you fart around forever. Plus things that are put off until 'tomorrow' just end up anywhere between even more complicated and time-consuming than if they'd tackled them today, or coming back to bite them hard on the bum. Yes, it's frustrating if you're the type takes life especially seriously. But look at it this way: if there weren't people around who play with life like it's no more important or sacred than some kickaround, throwaway toy, how on earth would types like you know yourselves? You needs comparisons and contrasts for that. Types like them have a purpose, though. Sometimes go-getting types can be in too much of a hurry than is good for them or the world thus NEED something to slow them down a little, otherwise it'd be a case of all non-stop world progress and no statis in which to pause and admire/wonder/analyse. It's all good...Just a case of this great machine working best, most intricately and thoroughly through comprising a whole variety of cogs rather than just the one type. You're obviously sat in the wrong spot in the machine and need to find the compartment you belong in (perhaps mixing with people who are older than you?). Then you'll feel neither different nor superior but inspired, encouraged, challenged and tested. You're not weird, though. And you're certainly not as exceptional as you think, not even remotely. You're just saying what most don't dare utter. So get out there and find the ones that do. "Simples!" :-)

Hmmm... It is interesting to read these comments, and I still can't believe how I feel is common and there are a lot more people of my age who feel like I do. And SOULMATE, you were right with the part that I take life serious. I already know roughly what I want to do with my life, I can tell you that it has something to do with making the world a better place, but I don't feel like sharing it with anyone, not even online, because I would be declared crazy. I will go and see if there are more people like me out there that try to excel at everything they do and always go for victory. And KATSERB, I am not sure if you saw how old I was, but you send me a link to a dating site for 18+ ;)

Well, no, I wasn't necessarily talking about AGE. Just that there are lots like you in the world. You're what's known as 'an old soul on young shoulders', if you want to put a label on it. You talk like a 30 year old, FYI (don't know whether you know that?). That's why I said, "perhaps mixing with people who are older than you?". ...LOL, although I couldn't hand-on-heart say you pay attention like a 30 year old. ;-) "I can tell you that it has something to do with making the world a better place, but I don't feel like sharing it with anyone, not even online, because I would be declared crazy." Not EVEN online? But online is the EASIEST place to declare it! Think about it: nobody here knows who the hell you are and would never in a million years be able to work it out. Or, what - you think you're the first person to originate a thread like this one on a forum or have a higher than wordly goal? That would be a big fat NOPE! I repeat, there are lots like you in the world. So if you want to spill?... welcome to SpillVille. :-) "I will go and see if there are more people like me out there that try to excel at everything they do and always go for victory." Well, there are people like you in here, as it happens. **** PS: KATSERB was spam, pretending to be a member. So now she's chopped spam. ;-)