I Don't Know What To Choose

Hello, i am Kry as my nickname,,,im 21, currently im a university student. still have 2 years before i graduate. my first year was great, i met lots of nice people and friends. but it all gradually changed. the second year, i had a huge problem with my family, especially my father. He opposed everything i decide in my life, my studies, my work, my future plan. if i ever try to deny him,he kept saying im failure for many many times i felt like i lose confidence in myself. since then, not once ever worked in my life anymore, i starting skipped classes, even if i got offer letters for governmet interviews, i did my best for so many times yet i failed because i felt like the word 'Failure' by my father etched in my heart so deeply. no one can help me, i have seek help from counselor, my lectures, my friends yet they ignored me. i felt like my life should just end right away if this what i have to feel. I took on leave from university for 1 semester only to rest my heart and myself. i cannot quit because i would feel guilty for my mom. However, none of my family close enough for me to talk about this matter, i tried once talk about this to my parents yet they said, "it's your own problem, not ours, it's because you are weak. dont ever talk about this ever again" i dont have family or friends or adults to support me. no one has ever tried to listen to my cries. i dont know what to do, continue studies or search for a job or refresh a new start at other university or keep following my father or pray i should just die. I hope i can seek for the best advice here. thank you for reading this

Hello, I can understand where you are coming from! I experience the same sort of troubles with my dad and my family just brush it off. I find the best thing to do is simply try talk to him and explain all this to him, and if that's fails- like it did for me.. Just do what YOU want to do and do everything in your power to make you happy. Many people find comfort in talking to a friend, but like you have stated that isn't possible- take part in a hobby which takes your mind off of the situation, for example I go horse riding whenever I feel stressed! Obviously that isn't for everyone, but maybe listen to music or go for a run, just to take your mind off it. But do not leave university, think about it long term, you will regret it if you don't stick with it! Hope this helps