Big breasts vs I love you

A while back i found out my boyfriend of two years at the time had a stash of over 300gigabites of pictures and porn of women with big breasts. We argued about it because 1) I am a B-cup and all the women were D cup plus and 2) He was spending more time combing the web for this stuff and masturbating than with me. As a means of supposedly showing me how much he loved me he erased it all in front of me. As a means of an outside and neutral perspective I posted here because he said it was only a fetish thing not real and I wanted to know what other men might say or women in similar situation would advice. Well six months later only a week after valentines day i borrow his laptop and behold I find he had started the whole thing again. This time though I did not get emotional I asked him to give me the external harddrive he was using. I left the house and got my laptop. I went through the images and gifs. After an hour three things stood out to me 1) Most of the images were images f women with big breasts doing everyday things or selfies 2) the gifs all centered around titjobs(similar to blow jobs except the girl uses her breasts not her mouth) 3) When i searched the names for the images he actually had names for the girls and multiple pics of them. The above led me to believe that he was actually interacting and interested in having a relationship with them. I confronted him and told him that this time i had gone through the files and thought he was sick. He said that they were just pictures and it was a hard habit to kick. I told him he was full of bullshit how he say he was happy with me and still spend once again so much time on this. It has now gotten to the point that when we are in public im emnbarassed whenever a busty woman is around I literally feel physically ill. When he touches me I feel sad depressed and inadequate. He says he loves me and that he never tried to contact them but the trust is gone and I just don't believe him. What am I supposed to think how am i to process this. Please any advice would be greatly appreciated. Men if you like women of this type don't you think he's lying that he could be happy with anything less? Would getting a procedure for breast augmentation make a difference would they feel real? Women do I trust that he has never physically cheated on me with anyone as proof that he does love me? IF any of you have breast implants do you recomend them do they feel real to you or your partners?

Straightforward, Keeping the fact of porn and fetish aside, have you ever felt that he has cheated on you or he is lying to you? If yes, it is time you rethink about this whole relationship. All women feel insecure about one or a few things. But you cannot make it something that makes you physically ill, inadequate, or depressed dear ! Thats way too much. Your are putting too much pressure on yourself. Talk things through, go see a counselor. and then take a decision.