I don't know why I can't be happy

For the past for years I have suffered from severe depression, anxiety and psychosis. I have had therapy for these four years and have been on medication in and off for two years. I am in a stable loving relationship, I have not significant home or money problems. I have a job and enjoy education... So why do I still cry daily? Why do I still want to die so badly? I don't understand why I feel this way or how to fix it. If anyone has any advice at all... Or even has similar issues and just wants to chat, it would mean the world to me.

Hello. Are you there?

Hopefully you are ok. I am new to this forum and the idea of sharing life issues but I have come to learn that listening to others can be therapeutic. I know that might sound selfish but my intentions are genuinely to help anyone if possible. I've dealt with some of your issues and although I was given medication, I opted to not take anymore and instead, try to find myself and my inner peace. It is a work in progress but slowly working for the best.

You are on the right path by looking to talk to others with similar or other types of issues. It takes inner strength and confidence to find a forum like this and share your personal feelings. I hope you find the peace you deserve because it's right there in front of you but depression is the blinders of life. I can honestly say life will get better because as I said before, you're hear reaching out and that's the first step. Your personal experiences can help someone else in need and that alone should reassure you of your greatness as a human being. It's ok to cry because it really helps to cleanse the soul but just remember to smile as well. Life is beautiful and your loved ones around you feel the same because you are in there life. Take care and please don't forget to smile. It might sound or feel silly to do so for no apparent reason but that's just it, the reason is you're alive and you have the power to accomplish so much!