Never had / can't have a relationship

Not sure if this is the place to put this or not and i think i already know the answer (im doomed!) but i feel like getting it off my chest or maybe i just want to have a whinge lol ok my story im a 29 year old male ex drug addict who wasted the better part of half his life on drugs and just stayed in my room and never went out anywhere so i developed social anxiety because of that and i didn't care about myself or my body so i never showered or brushed my teeth ever! ok maybe once a year on my birthday lol and OMG am i paying for it now :( i have blackheads/whiteheads everywhere and i mean everywhere!! (cough down there cough) so as you can probably tell from all that im a virgin! and to top all that off every 30minutes i get a pre-ejaculate/pre-cum (the clear stuff) discharge that ive had since puberty and it happens all the time! even when not aroused walking around the shopping centre/bowling/school anywhere anytime sucks hard core because ive got to go run off and clean my self :( went to the doctors about it and they sent me to a urologist and he said for the 5% of men that get it its normal and there is nothing they can do to fix it :( so fast forward to today i am now getting my life back on track im back at school and have been off drugs for 6years now and with the help of my doctor and medication ive got my social anxiety under a bit of control well enough so that ive even been out on three 1st dates with 3 separate women all good :) but when it comes time to talk about me they hear my problems and get scared off :( i understand i mean i wouldn't want to date me either lol and i know i shouldn't tell them all my problems so soon but i think im looking for someone to hear my story and say i understand and don't care and everything will be alright i know that's unrealistic but its my fairy tail. im not that bad looking so my friends say but ive build up this virginity thing into some kind of monster now and i don't think i or anyone i meet will ever be able to get past that! let alone my discharge/whitehead problem or how fucked up my teeth are :( i cant see any possible way of me ever getting a girlfriend or having a relationship or even sex for that matter :( sooo doomed! sorry to whinge to you's but i have no one else to talk to. and if you read all of this whinge i commend you lol

YOU FREAK!