Cheated on her

I cheated on my girlfriend... There's no excuse for what I did... One night I got drunk... and had an affair with my ex, who is/was my best friends girlfriend... I tried to keep it silent, but... I couldn't... My conscience was burning me alive. I fucked up and felt that I have to face my consequences... I lost my girlfriend and my best friend... I deserved it... I'm disappointed in myself, so are they... The thing that hurts most, is that they are fucked up... There is no word that can describe how sorry I am... What to do next? How to keep on? Let it go? Can't do that... This will leave a scar in my memory for the rest of my life... Before I lose one thing that I got left, sanity, someone, anyone... Nice advice is always welcome.

I am glad that you owned up to what you did. You are not blaming anyone else but yourself, and that in itself is a step forward. You cannot erase what you did, but you can improve yourself as a person so that it won't happen again. Think about what you should have done. Since cheating was the wrong thing to do, what would have been the right thing to do? Your past is always a part of you, but you can choose to become better or worse in the future. If you feel your friends have issues too, you may be right, but that does not mean that they will accept your behavior or forgive you for it. People tend to react one way about what they do and then react another way about what others do to them. But my advice to you would be to focus on who you are, how you want to be treated, and how you want to treat others. WHAT TO DO NEXT: There are different things you can do. It all depends on the type of person you are. I would start internally and reflect on your life, because the choices we make are affected by who we are. Reflect on your strengths, weaknesses, interests, current lifestyle, career, relationship choices. How do you think you can improve right now? How do you treat other people, and is this similar to how you want to be treated? After reflecting a bit, take some steps to make your life better. Try to be more positive. Improve the friendships that you have now. Put into action those things that you think will better your life and others. If another relationship comes along, make sure to be a better boyfriend than you were to your ex. I wish you much luck! TILES

thanks... I just hope there's any chance for us to get back together... Wich I doubt... She moved away to another town... she went on collage there... and I don't get the chance to see her... I talked with her, she was sarcastic to me... not that I blame her... but... I don't know... I like her alot... and I'm sorry for doing this to her