Finance, college life depression, please help me!

I just wish I could die right now.Everything is just a mess, nothing is going right. Just got out of a 12 year abusive relationship with my guardian, thought that things would only get better for me but they just keep getting worse. This may seem petty to most but $700 and a job would make my life so much better or at least I hope it will. I'm an international student in the U.S. and I'm only allowed to work on campus, which sucks because those jobs are limited. I have a couple of unexpected fees and if I don't figure something out I'll have to go right back to my oppressor, and it will be just like she said. I really hate me. I'm 20 years old and I have nothing to show for it...I'm not good at anything ... And everything always goes wrong ..I freaken hate living.

First of all at 20 we all felt the same as you. You'r getting your education which is what you should be doing. Don't let anything or anyone prevent you from completing your education!!. I would seek help with the University Counselor, Psychologist, Medical Doctor, Dean and report the abuse. Check out HOTLINES that deal with abusive relationship. Demand that this information be held confidential and ask for their help. Your problem are not as insurmountable as you may think. Maybe a little financial aid would help the additional fees, the abusive environment and what you have endured is your main concern. Seek help it's out there..