Falling for my bossy boss

I'm 25 and i have a huge crush on my 45 year old boss who is married and has 4 children (the last one is barely 6 months old) :/ I feel so bad about the feelings I'm developing towards him but I just can't help it. He is the client manager and I'm his assistant and he always gets pretty close to me. He stands behind me almost touching my body with his. And he kind of always makes jokes trying to get me all worked up and shy. The other day I asked him something about a hardware named "G" and he was like "do you want me to touch your G spot?" While bending over me to go on my laptop. He always calls me baby and whenever someone on the company asks me to do something he gets all possessive and says that I'm his, he kinda of makes me all shivering just by his piercing look. He's very demandant and bossy and I love this side of him. He just I don't know how to explain it but he has just this charism that gets me so attracted to him. It's kinda confusing cuz I love writing so I tend to imagine things but I just don't know where to stand. I'm so confused with my feelings and the way he acts towards me. I feel that finally someone looks at me but in the same way I feel so bad because he's married. And I'm just so lost. And I have nobody to turn too :(

Hey there Crazyorinlove, That's quite a predicament, that you're writing about. First off, I don't think you should feel bad for these feelings. Some emotions can't be controlled. But it may be best not to interfere with your boss's home life. It's tough, I'm sure. Seeing that it seems like he is into you too, but even if he's being true to his feelings. You have to ask yourself: Is he into you, or is he "into" you? It seems that he's just looking for an affair or taking advantage of your feelings. Sorry to say, but I don't think he loves you, and with that being said, you already deserve better. You're still young and full of life. Fooling around with a married man can only lead to trouble. You're no fool, you shouldn't be treated like one. Hope this helps, take care and stay adamant. It's better for you this way

So much is wrong here. 1st. He is commiting sexual harassment in the work place. 2nd.Imagine you were his wife and could see how both you and your Boss are behaving. 3rd You know you are worth a whole lot more than this. Without meaning to sound unpleasant,take a long hard look at yourself and this situation and you know it is all wrong. If he finds you attractive, then others will also. Look around again and pick some one more worthy of your affections.

I know that this is so wrong. And I mentally feel bad about it. Every night I ask God for forgiveness for those feelings. But I really just can't help it. I don't know how to fight it. :(