Can trust be regained or is it over? Help

Basically I am a 43 year old woman on her umpteenth marriage and I'm tired of starting over and over again with yet another problem to fix with someone else. You name the abuse I've been through it. Have no ties to family or friends heck I have no life long friends well really I cant even remember a name of someone from my childhood no real connections with family either. I am estranged really from them due to abuse and don't want just another spit in my face. Yeah believe me the abuse was very VERY bad my mom even left me when I was 8 or 9 I really try not to think about it I was pretty young so forgive no dates.Left me for the man who molested me and took my brothers and sisters for aprox. 2 years. Well my issue now is there is no trust in my marriage what do I do PLEASE HELP

I know how you feel. I am 41, single mother of two, from two failed relationships. Been through violence, drug addition, compulsive liars, alcoholics..you name it, I think I've dated all of the worst categories of men. So, is it easier to be alone? I had almost given up, but have now been with my current partner for 6 months. He's not violent, he has no additions, he has been known to tell the odd little lie here and there though. Also, he is not as attentive as I would like. I wondered to myself if I should just dump him too, but then when I thought about how much I do love him and compared him to my disasters of previous relationships, I decided to stick to it. I bought a book for him as it goes off Amazon, http://www.amazon.com/How-Make-Woman-Happy-Guide-ebook/dp/B00ULJLDSS. And i seem to be getting results. Sure, he's not pefect, but then again, nor am I

CityGirl, you've given your background but have failed to describe what problems you're experiencing in your marriage, or for how long, as brings you to the conclusion there's no trust (nor mentioning on whose side)? Can you elaborate?