I honestly just need someone to lend an ear....

Where should I begin? I have been in this relationship forever... I honestly love him, although I feel like everything is a struggle for me ... i wonder if I should just throw in the towel and run away.... he isn't very nice to me anymore, says he loves me but we spend less and less time together and anymore we just fight He makes me feel awful, he is obsessed with social media would rather engage in it and not me... our sex life is just about him what he wants when he wants... really wouldn't surprise me to find out he is having sex outside our relationship...

I know it's easy to tell someone to just leave and move on, but I know how hard that will be for you. What you need to realize is that you're important, and your feelings matter... and if this continues sooner or later HE will leave YOU and then you'll be more crushed... you'll tell yourself how stupid you are and how you should have walked out ages ago. If it has really reached a point where you feel that talking about how you feel is not going to work then maybe it is time to let go. Give yourself the respect and love you deserve. When you walk out of a relationship it takes time to heal before you can move on to someone else... and you owe yourself that. You deserve the kind of affection you put in back from your partner.