Cross dressing

Since i was very young i have been a cross dresser until recently it was something that i had alway kept to myself, as i have got older i have struggled more and more with this. Over the years i have had periods where i have really tried to stop sometimes throwing away a fortune in clothes etc but sooner or later i always go back to it. Now in my early 40's i feel its very hard to cope with and i desperatly want to bring it out in to the open, i will never be able to do this my wife has a very closed mind and it would never work. In a moment of real turmoil i decided to tell my sister, she actually handled the situation well, we arranged to meet up and had a long chat about it all, she was amazed that it had been going for so long and laughed as i told about the times i nearly got caught when we were younger at home. Anyway i really hoped that this was going to change things for me, maybe she would invite me round for a day, help me with shopping, perhaps there would be special birthday or xmas gifts but no since that meeting there has been nothing, she has accepted the fact without judging me for which i am grateful but there has been no support other than that. I have sent a couple of emails gently broaching the subject by mentioning the lack of shops in our town or how i admired a certain outfit but she seems oblivious to what i was actually hoping for by sharing this with her. Now i feel like i have nobody left to turn to which has left me lonely and isolated.