Help! Bulimia

Hello im a 27 year old female i have been bulimic for almost 3 years. Its been really bad for 8 months and even worse the past 3 months i would throw up everything because i csnt stop eating until im really full i binge alot. But i ended up having muscle spasms severe oaloton my bavk and chest i guess from the force of throwing up and anxiety so now its been 4 days that i stopped because im scared of dying.And its affecting me alot physically. Its just not worth it. But after 4 days of not throwing up i atill hve the same pain on my back and anxiety. And i feel like maybe i messed something up in my head because i cant consentrate too good. I just feel weird and wanna move on. I even have bradycardia now i literally threwbup everyfay for the last almost 3 years. I want to know if theres someone out there that can give me some advice on how to go thru this recovery any tips im really done throwing up i just wanna kbow if its possible thta im still gonna dye even tho i stopped i never meant for it to get out of cobtrol but i couldnt stop but after all the physical pain im going thru its just not worth it anymore. But i feel out of it like really weird. If anyone could tell me anything about this thank u

I remember a coworker from years ago whom died from bulimia. How come you won't see physician? It couldn't hurt. Unless someone with some sort of medical background comes here to give you better advice or maybe talk you through this.

MILLICENT bulimia is a very deep rooted psychological condition but I'm glad to hear something has triggered you to stop this behavior. You may think that you're going to stop but it's very easy for you to fall back into this behavior. Have you thought of any long term care facilities? Not sure where u live but insurance will usually cover the costs to some degree since your condition can be life threatening. Also you saying your heart beat is irregular really scares me bcuz I remember learning in school that electrolyte imbalances caused by constant throwing up can lead to irregularities with heart beat. This is considered a serious symptom so I suggest you see a doctor asap!! Hopefully it's just a cause of your anxiety. Either way please seek help while you still feel strongly about stopping. This is the best time to get help (when you feel determined to stop). It's going to be a tough road but if you don't want to die from bulimia it's your only option! I hope you stay strong and determined enough to get through this. Best of luck sweetie.