I don't know what to do? Help?

I get bullied because of a break up i had . People in school constantly come up to me and ask why i did all those things to the person i had a relatonship with . He keeps on telling people I made him quit alot of things and that i controleld him . In reality , all I did was encourage him to do his best at everything and get worried about his studies since I wanted this person to be on top . Though i was never on top , i wanted him to suceed . I dont know what I did to deserve this. Why do i need to explain myself to everyone ? I am so upset and scared . Everyone thinks I am a gold digger and a person that leads people on . He broke up with me because he thought that his gaming was more important than I was . I cut myself everynight and barely get sleep . I dont know what to do .

Hello Sunshine, Almost had that too. You know for yourself the reason of break up it's either you or your boyfriend's fault, but there is no reason to blame each other now. Both of you are emotionally guilty. Just ignore the people who bullied you, don't let them eat you it's not the end of everything and I'm sure that there are still plenty of people who you can trust and reach out. Just talk and let other reaches you too so you will never be alone and you will not be eaten by anxiety or depression

Dear Hotchix , Thank you for answering and I really am trying my best to endure it all . I cant really to talk any of my friends or family anymore . They'd only tell me to suck it up . I want to be strong but I cant accept the fact the relationship I had was unhealthy . I can never hate someone . I gave up everything for him and it was my mistake . I still have respect for him even though he treats me this way . Is something wrong with me ? I always tell myself that i need to act the more mature one but im upset that people wont do the same .