Guy trouble

Hi eveyone. I just want to note that I have a history of undiagnosed mental illness (the possibility of social anxiety disorder)- before I begin talking about my problem. A few months ago, I met a wonderful guy. We started dating and seeing each other in a regular basis. We didn't officially call ourselves girlfriend and boyfriend though as we felt we both weren't ready. During the relationship, I was going through a tough time psychologically. I felt like I was always living in fear of "mucking up" any potential of our partnership having success. He picked up on my anxiety and occasionally we'd discuss it and I knew I had to get it dealt with professionally. One night though, and a few days after I decided to get help, I had a mini breakdown. This final act of distress on my behalf, took it's toll on us and eventually he admitted that he felt like I couldn't relax around him and that we needed some time apart. That we should be friends for a while instead. I agreed with him, I knew I had problems I should have solved before starting our relationship. That didn't make it any easier though. He wanted to see me better and happier around him and that meant working on my confidence. He wasn't saying it to be cruel, he just wanted to see me better. I knew in a way it was good for him to leave. The night he said that, we both cried a lot- for most of the evening. We were both really attached to one another. I got really down over the next few days and found I was struggling mentally more than normal. I liked him a lot and wondered if he would really come back. The whole "let's just be friends" thing never really does seem promising I suppose. Still, I plodded on until my first psych appointment. Anyway, in the week gone by- and after days with no contact- he asked me if I wanted to catch up. I was delighted because I had missed him a lot and it was a relief to know he felt likewise. We had sparks still between us and he got emotional again after the time I'd said I'd had. He had been worried but glad I was getting help. We agreed we should keep our distance though because I needed to focus on myself. This Friday just been though, he invited me to his graduation ball- something we had planned on doing together previously but decided to leave due to the whole situation. We went and had a blast. But I was confused, prior to the ball and after it he insisted on holding my hands with me and acting like we used to before everything happened. Like we seeing eachother again. After the night he told me how much he liked me and had missed me and I felt the same too. The thing is, I'm not sure how to take his advances. He wanted "friends" before and now it's changed again. I adore him greatly and am so glad to have him back in a sense. He also said how optimistic I'd been since my appointment, which I felt was partly true. I have started feeling stronger. But should I be wary? Maybe he just needed some time to get his head around things, I don't know. He misses me a lot, just as I do him. If he is back, I know we need to take things slowly- because I know I need to focus on myself. He is a gorgeous guy but I am so confused. Thanks for reading my short essay, e